PIONEER OF THE POSSIBILITIES

SEBUAH PENYESALAN

2011-03-03T04:56:00.000-08:00

1hb Mac, pagi tu, aku sign in facebook dan Nampak budak2 sekolah aku ramai post kat status diorang pasal kematian seorang budak di kampong Tanjung Sedili bernama Wan. Ape-ape pun, aku bukanlah kenal pun siapa wan tu, so aku biarkan je sikap ignorant aku tu melayani diri.

Petang tu, aku keluar ke Bandar sebab temankan Hatta beli helmet baru warna merah, Ikram pun ada sekali, tapi diorang bawak kereta doctor. Masa balik di traffic light di seberang takir, aku Nampak berlaku sebuah kemalangan antar motor dan kereta. Tapi sebab dah nak malam, aku x turun semata2 demi nak tengok kejadian tu. Aku teruskan perjalanan dan singgah sebentar di warung sup utara sebab nak belikan Amer kuew teow sup.

Aku rehat2 di rumah kejap, mandi2 dan keluar pergi ke Bandar sekali lagi ikut syahmi dan jidol beli barang di mydin. Kami pulang ke rumah dalam pukul 11 dan jidol pesan mintak tolong ambil die dekat kafe kusza pada pukul 11.45pm. masa tu aku duduk sorang2 je kat rumah diorang. Dan aku bukak facebook, ternampak la seorang kawan sekolah aku bernama Afendy Razali shout out status die yang bertulis,

“Al-fatihah untuk sahabat kita, Wan atau Muhammad Nur Shahidee Bin Juadi di atas pemergian arwah pada hari ini kerana kemalangan kereta di Batu 8, Mawai.”

Maha Suci Allah, aku termanggu! Terduduk aku seketika mengenangkan sikap ignorant aku siang tadi! Aku tak sangka orang yang meninggal tu adalah salah seorang insan yang pernah menjadi sahabat baik aku! Aku lemah longlai. Aku teringin nak menangism tapi air mata ni degil sangat nak keluar.

Aku keluar rumah pukul 11.50 sebab nak ambil jidol. Di atas motor, aku rasa sangat kosong. Aku marah diri sendiri sebab aku terlalu bodoh dan ego. Aku terus ke kafe kusza, dan ternampak amer, yus, yuni dan anor dengan duduk berbincang. Aku duduk di belakang tembok, memikirkan tentang berita yang aku baru saja terima. Then Yus mintak aku belanja air. Diorang ade offer aku makanan, tapi aku tolak sebab aku dah xde selera nak makan sebab kawan aku baru saja meninggal dunia! Haikal datang, tapi aku buat dunno je. Aku mintak tolong ikram escort aku balik tapi die tak nak. Betapa gentar dan lemah semangat aku nak bawak motor, lastly jidol datang dan dia bawak.

Malam tu aku tidur rumah jidol, dan sempat aku duduk berdua dengan hatta. Kepada dialah aku nak mengadu dan menjadi diri aku yang sebenar. Sampai sekarang aku masih lagi rasa macam tak percaya…

MUHAMMAD NUR SHAHIDEE BIN JUADI,

Aku yang bernama Mohamad Syukri Bin Sani, seorang insan yang pernah memanggil kau sahabat, dengan begitu rendah hati, penuh kasih atas nama persahabatan yang pernah kita bina, memohon ampun dan maaf atas segala dosa yang aku pernah lakukan kepadamu.

Maafkan aku wan kerana pernah melukakan hati kau.

Maafkan aku kerana pernah memutuskan perhubungan kau dengan ayu.

Maafkan aku wan sebab pernah menipu memanggil kau gay dan drug addict.

Maafkan aku wan sebab tak pernah pun meminta maaf dengan kau langsung.

Wan, seandainya kau masih hidup, aku ingin memeluk dirimu wahai sahabatku kerana kau sungguh istimewa. Kau yang mempertemukan kembali aku dengan Qayyum, kau yang pernah buat aku gembira masa aku down. Kau pernah temankan aku masa kita dekat Felcra Tebing Tinggi dulu, kau yang bercerita pasal Qayyum kat aku..

Wan, tak pernah timbul langsung dalam hati aku sedikit rasa benci pada kau.

Terima kasih wan di atas sebuah hubungan bernama Persahabatan yang pernah kita jalinkan.

Terima kasih wan di atas segala yang kau berikan pada aku.

Terima kasih wan kerana kau mempertemukan aku dengan sahabat lama aku.

Terima kasih wan sebab pernah protect aku masa aku kena buli.

Terima kasih atas segala-galanya wan…

YA ALLAH YA TUHANKU YANG MAHA PENGASIH LAGI MAHA PENYAYANG,

AMPUNKANLAH DOSA SAHABATKU, ALLAHYARHAM MUHAMMAD NUR SHAHIDEE BIN JUADI, AMPUNKANLAH SEGALA DOSA-DOSANYA YA ALLAH, LAPANGKANLAH KUBURNYA, CUCURILAH RAHMATMU KE ATAS ROHNYA, DAN TEMPATKAN DIA DI KALANGAN ORANG2 YANG ENGKAU KASIHI. KASIHANILAH DIRINYA YA ALLAH, DAN PERTEMUKANLAH KAMI DALAM SYURGAMU DI AKHIRAT KELAK YA ALLAH! AMIN YA RABBAL ALAMIN…

Kau tetap segar dalam ingatanku, Muhammad Nur Shahidee Bin Juadi, takkan aku lupakan kau dalam doaku…

Tulus ingatan, ikhlas dari Mohamad Syukri Bin Sani

BUSIEST WEEK EVER

2011-02-28T16:35:00.000-08:00

Dah nak hampir sampai ke penghujung bulan dua dah pun di tahun 2011. Masa berjalan dengan begitu pantas sampai kita sendiri pun tak menyedari. By the way, kali nie aku nak try blogging dalam bahasa melayu, no full English sentences (boleh percaya ke) haha.

Aku sekarang agak sibuk la dengan kehidupan yang penuh tugasan sebagai pelajar. Sebuah amanah yang diberikan oleh orang2 yang aku sayang, yang aku kena laksanakan jugak tak kira apa. Tapi standard ar, melayu nie, penyakit M besar tu memang dah sebati dalam jiwa raga, so apa pun tak jadi.

Tadi aku temankan hatta pergi HSNZ sebab few things came up, dan hatta pun tolong2 aku edarkan boring survey yang sepatutnya aku yang kene buat. Ragam manusia, ade jumpa yang ok, boleh bagi full commitment terhadap survey tu, dan ala lak yang lansung x reti menulis. Kesian lak aku tengok, bukan orang tua, tapi orang muda, agak2nya sebaya dengan aku atau abang aku. Sebab tu lah, dari dulu lagi orang tua dah pesan, belajarlah betul2, jangan main2, nanti masa depan kita tak tahu macamana, Cuma pelajaranlah yang dapat membantu membimbing kita ke arah kejayaan.

Pergh, punya lah banyak kan aku membebel, standard ar tu haha. Aku nak bagitahu kat sini, benda yang aku tak gemar adelah bila Haikal call atau mesej orang tu, guna perkataan “weh”, atau pun yang gune banyak marks macam “????”… aku tension giler. Haikal, haikal. Sabar jela yop.

Harini 26hb February 2011, aku baru je balik dari program Hari Senyum Mentor Mentee KEMAFIZ dekat padang FPE. Aku tengah lepak kat bilik haikal. Dah dua malam aku tumpang tidur sini. Minggu lepas berderet tidur rumah sewa Hatta tiap2 malam. Ter’sangat lah cool. X tau malu punya syuk. Aku ngantuk giler, n nervous.

Sebab baru jap tadi aku dihimpit oleh sebuah HILUX yang tanpa segan silu dan selambanya memutarkan stering ny ke kiri dan kena pada Jessica aku. Shit! Bagus kau bro, hebat dan sungguh mulia cara kau bawak kereta. Tersangat lah bagus. Tapi xpe, sebab kau mintak maaf, dan sedia nak bertanggungjawab kalau Jessica aku tercedera, aku maafkan kau. Selamat Jessica x bercalar atau rosak atau ape2. Tapi HILUX kau bercalar kan? Fair n square la bai. Okay?

HIDUP UMPAMA RODA BAI

2011-02-20T13:09:00.000-08:00

Damn, lama gila tak update blog nie. It has been few months I thought. Inilah padahnya kalau terlalu ber’facebook je. Tapi better update blog daripada duduk tercongok depan laptop melayan facebook and all the comments yang cukup membengangkan hati yang dah sedia bengkak macam cibai ni.

Hidup aku dah confirm2 macam roda, kejap kat atas, kejap kat bawah. Tapi most of the time memang kat bawah la. Kat atas kejap je, pastu tup tup tup dah jatuh ke bawah semula. Tapi, itulah yang dinamakan hidup, ye tak? Kita kena la belajar daripada setiap apa yang kita lalui.

Fisrt, nak cakap pasal result aku sem 3 punya la. Macam cibai! Sumpah cibai! Tu lah syuk, duduk fikir sangat benda2 yang memang x penting dan sememangnya tak membawak faedah langsung kat kau, tu la jadinya. Macam masa sem 1. Cinta la, apela.. kau percaya cinta ke? Layak ke kau bercinta dan dicintai?

Cinta, memang seronok. Kalau kau dah suke kat seseorang tu, kau memang tak akan kesah pasal ape2, asalkan kau tahu je dia ade di samping kau. Tapi kalau cinta bertepuk sebelah tangan, ape kes? Dah2 la tu syuk, kau memang dah ditakdirkan jadi seorang mamat yang tak boleh bercinta dan dicintai. Terima jelah hakikat. Even hubungan yang bergelar persahabatan pun kau dah dihargai, inikan pulak cinta. Bodoh la kau syuk. Cukup bodoh, terlalu bodoh, teramat bodoh.

Sebab kau cinta kat die, kau punya result jatuh, kenapa? Sebab kau asyik fikir:

1) Eh, die ingat kat aku tak ek?

2) Wah, die layan aku baek la, happy nye aku, tapi kenapa die layan aku macam tu ek? Entah2 die pun suke kat aku tak,

3) Eh syuk, die malu la orang lain dah cakap macam2 pasal kau dengan die. Die malu tahu tak?

4) Eh, harini aku nak spend masa dengan die la, (tapi bile die tak nak, kau akan piker buruk2 lagi)

5) Sampai satu tahap, kau dah macam orang gile,

Come on syuk, wake up la bahlul. Aku rase kalau aku nie nak dicintai, bukan sebab hati aku yang jadi alasan. Aku rasa kalau aku nak dicintai, aku kene work out banyak2, bina badan, pastu baru la ade orang nak kat aku.

Tapi aku pedulik ape dengan semua tu. Aku tahu sekarang aku dah tak boleh berada dalam love game nie, sebab ia tak membawa apa2 keuntungan langsung kat aku, cume memayahkan, dan menyusahkan. Dan dia, Syuk, kau boleh lupekan die, memang akan ambil mase yang lame sebab kau memang selalu Nampak die, dan mungkin jugak die akan mintak tolong kau mcam2, tapi percayala kau boleh lupekan die syuk. It is just another stain u have to erase. A stain la syuk. Not a big hole in your world pun.

Ingatlah syuk, masih ada lagi yang baik2 untuk kau di masa depan. Terima jela kenyataan die bukan jdoh kau. Jauh sekali. Kau kene utamakan diri sendiri dulu serta keluarga kau yang sentiasa sayang pada kau, who share with you the unbreakable bonds. Move further forward syuk, hidup kau masih lagi boleh jadi cerah walaupun tanpa cinta dia.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

2010-09-22T06:40:00.002-07:00

Hi people! How are you guys doing? Do you have fun holidaying for Hari Raya Aidilfitri? Hahaha. I’m now home, and kind of missing all buddies in Terengganu. Before going back to homeland, I could have finished preparing bunches of cards for my best friends. Those belong to THEM. Sape THEM tu? Kenapa mesti diorang? Hahaha. I may have you my points.

Kenapa mesti Hatta? Well, kitorang dah kenal 3 tahun lebih yang lepas and having had four syawals together (2007, 2008, 2009 and 2010), and kitorang x pernah missed bertukar kad raya stiap kali syawal menjelang tiba throughout those years. He’s definitely a real best friend of my life. Macam tajuk lagu Kelly Clarkson, my life would suck without you. That’s the definition of Hatta to me. But it was kind of suck to me this year as I just couldn’t get him a very beautiful yet expensive card macam tahun lepas2. Shit la! I should have gotten him one. But I do hope that Hatta would not mind about that. Hahaha, we shared banyak sangat memories yang tak ternilai sepanjang kami berkawan. He was the one who would be by my side during my ups and downs. Thanks to you Hatta for being the one. I love you mate!

Next, kenapa nesti Nameera? Haha. Well, she has been someone very special in my life. She has always been concerned about me even though aku nie selalu menyusahkan die. Ape2 pun sorry sebab kad raye yang syuk bagi kat meera tu x lah berapa chantek dan menarik, tapi hopefully ayat dalam tu dapat la menyejukkan hati anda ye. Hahaha. Tq sebab dah banyak sangat meera tolong syuk walaupun syuk x pernah tolong meera. Time kaseh sangat2.

Lastly, kenapa Amer? Hahaha. Kadang2 kita kalau berkawan tu, kalau nak rapat kenalah ambil masa yang lama. Kenal hati budi die macam mana. Kita x boleh nak simply consider orang tu macam mana. Kawan aku yang alim lagi zuhud pernah cakap kat aku, kalau kite nie berteman, janganlah kerana kepandaian die kerana kalau die tersilap, kite akan menghinanya. Janganlah kite bersahabat dengan die disebabkan kecantikan atau kehandsomean die, kerana kalau die cacat, kita akan mengejinya. Jangan bersahabat dengannya kerana kekayaannya kerana kalau die miskin dan susah, kite akan menjauhinya. Bersahabatlah dengan seseorang ikhlas kerana Allah Taala. And as for Amer, he’s been one of the greatest friends I have ever met, who gives his ears when I really need someone to hear me out, who makes me laugh when I am terrified. Insya-Allah, walaupun aku nie x lah sesempurna insan lain, tapi aku berusaha untuk menjadi sahabat yang terbaik bukan saja untuk diorang tapi juga untuk yang lain. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

And to those who I unintentionally have you not received my card, I would like to say sorry. Sorry sangat2 sebab memang x berkesempatan nak bagi. Anyhow, korang akan sentiasa tetap dalam ingatan nie. Hahaha. Well, a card doesn’t really mean much to you, but sincerity does, right? Hahaha. Lastly, I wish you all MINAL AIDIL WAL FAIZIN, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN, sincerely from Mohamad Syukri Bin Sani.

CONFESSION

2010-09-22T06:40:00.000-07:00

Lebih 20 tahun aku berpijak di atas bumi dan berteduh di bawah langit Tuhan ini. Dan berbagai cabaran dan rintangan telah ku lalui. Keretakan dalam persahabatan yang sering kali berlaku, disebabkan aku terlalu menyayangi kawan-kawanku, sehinggakan mereka mengambil kesempatan di atas kebaikan diri ini. ~~Diri ini diperbodohkan~~. Namun, di usia ini, barulah aku menyedari bahawa segala apa yang aku lakukan itu semua sia-sia. Gelap sebentar dunia ini kurasakan. Aku rasa lemah longlai, walaupun diri ini bertongkatkan kaki yang teguh ini. Mungkin insan lain dapat melihat senyuman di wajah ini, namun itu semua palsu. Aku merana di dalam.

Walau bagaimanapun, aku bersyukur kerana ada lagi insan yang sudi lagi bersahabat denganku, Mohd Hattarudin B Yacob yang sentiasa memberikanku semangat untuk terus berdiri teguh, dan melangkah maju ke depan tanpa menoleh sedikit pun ke belakang. Ku telah sedar bahawa bukan persahabatan palsu yang aku cari, namun sebuah persahabatan sebenar, yang mampu menolongku mencapai impian memiliki masa depan yang sempurna. Hatta, aku terlalu menyayangi dirimu. Terlalu! Terima kasih kerana menerima diriku ini seadanya.

Dan mereka yang ku gelar sahabat di course fizik, aku juga menyayangi kalian, walaupun pada awalnya aku sendiri tidak menghargai kalian, namun aku bersyukur Tuhan telah membuka mataku bahawa Dia sudah mengaturkan yang terbaik untukku. Sahabat2 seperjuangan untuk mengejar kejayaan di fizik, terima kasih kerana dapat menerima diri ini seadanya. Aku menyayangi kalian LILLAHI TA’ALA.. seikhlasnya.. marilah kita sama-sama melangkah menuju kejayaan, insya-Allah kejayaan duniawi dan akhirat..

TERIMA KASIH dan SALAM SETULUS2 IKHLAS serta KASIH SAYANG YANG TIADA TANDINGAN kepada seluruh ahli keluargaku… mak n ayah, abang2 dan kakak, serta anak2 saudara yang aku terlalu sayangi,,, aku hidup kerana kalian hidup… andainya diri ini pergi dulu, aku ingin memohon seribu kemaafan di atas semua salah silapku, ampunkanlah anakmu ini wahai ibu dan ayah, maafkan adikmu ini wahai kakak dan abang, ampunkanlah Ucu mu ini wahai anak-anakku… di pintu syurga kita akan berjumpa lagi…

2O’S JOURNEY

2010-09-22T06:39:00.001-07:00

Dialah Allah, Tuhan Yang Maha Menciptakan diri ini, atas nama-Nya roh ini berjasadkan diri ini, atas kekuasaan-Nya ku lahir dari benih dan rahim insan paling mulia, dengan kalimah-Nya telinga kananku dialunkan, setiap nafas dan segenap tubuh ini hanyalah milik-Nya, di atas bumi-Nya aku bertatih, di bawah lembayung langit-Nya aku berteduh, atas kemurahan-Nya aku diberikan nikmat yang tak tergambar indahnya… Terima kasih Ya Allah… Aku dihidupkan dengan keadaan yang suci, maka matikanlah aku dalam keadaan suci juga… Selamat Hari Lahir wahai hamba Allah yang kerdil…

IT NEVER ENDS.. IT HAS JUST BEGUN...

2010-07-20T01:17:00.000-07:00

A countless thankfulness and gratitude is for Allah, The Merciful and The Almighty for having given me a tremendous chance to breathe in this most wonderful world ever, to constitute the continuous life, which still is endless. The journey of my life has consumed a very long time, starting from pre-school, five-year primary school, hectic secondary schools, wonderful Matriculation College and the recent tertiary educational institution, Malaysia University of Terengganu. Nonchalantly unnoticed that I was done at my very first year in UMT, let’s move on to the next pace of life that still costs me innumerable challenges. What if you were being haunted of your pasts? What if you could not tear them apart from your memory? A friend of me ever said to me to just stop living in my past and look forward to my future. You might have no idea if this took a toll on you, man. You could maybe know yourself no more. You could even become crazy thinking over the past that you never requested to get trapped into it, which came to you by without you realizing it. God, why must it be me? Neither is it anyone else. I tried my very best to erase all my memories with a buddy who never met his promises. When I almost found the way, YOU sent to me someone who resembles him, who I must ‘share’, my life with. I was in doubt to distinguish these two persons. I have dragged that new man into a situation he could never figure it out. God, if only I could tell him why this happened, he would surely understand. But let the time decide. Of those two different men who resemble one another, I could only see them as one. Of an old great buddy and a new mate, I crumble. The reason why YOU sent that new mate into my life, it could be that I could let go off my longing to see that old buddy, which I have not seen for a very long time. I was just confused at distinguishing them – someone who I considered as brother and another one who I considered as that brother’s reflection. I wanted to serve that reflector for the way who he is, but I wasn’t sincere enough that only stumbling into my mind was that he is my ‘brother’. Another side of me whispered merely happy that by his reflection, I could see my brother through him. God, I take up this challenge by YOU, as I surely know YOU might have something to present me with.

NEW YEAR’S RESOLUTION

2010-01-01T06:24:00.000-08:00

Entah lah kenapa aku rase diri aku nie kosong je. Orang lain tengah syok2 lepak kat luar nak sambut new year, siap wat countdown sume, rap party, aku lak bukan nak join. Terperap dalam bilik jelah. It has been three years I did not celebrate my new year with anyone. Including my friends. Family apatah lagi kan. It has been, anyhow, a deep sorrow for me as I was just staring every single part of my room with empty feeling.

2009 banyak membawa seribu makna dalam hidup aku. 2009 merupakan tahun di mana aku banyak belajar erti kehidupan yang sebenar, lebih2 lagi istilah persahabatan dan cinta. Persahabatan itu jauh lebih indah berbanding cinta. Namun ramai yang mengorbankan persahabatan demi cinta. 2009, aku semakin rapat dengan geng street smartz aku. Aku sendiri macam tak percaya how 365 days could have passed too fast. Betapa hari-hari aku dah habis matrix tu cepat berlalu. Banyak azam yang aku nak tahun 2009 sebenarnya tak tercapai. Tapi aku sendiri sedar apa yang aku azamkan sepatutnya bukan sesuatu yang hanya boleh ditanam dalam hati pada setiap menjelangnya tahun baru.

Tahun 2009 juga dah menyingkap kedukaan yang aku lalui sepanjang hidup ini. Aku dapat mengenal apa itu cinta berdasarkan nafsu, mana cinta yang x betul, mana cinta yang betul2 sejati. Begitu jugak persahabatan. Ape yang aku boleh cakapkan kat sini, aku sangat happy dapat berjumpa dengan geng2 street smartz aku, yang betul2 memahami aku dan wat aku rase sometimes I belong to everyone. Aku jugak pernah merasakan betapa pahit apabila cinta dan persahabatan kita dikhianati. Aku dapat rasakan betapa aku telah kehilangan seorang lagi insane yang aku sayang dalam dunia ni – abang aku. Sejak dari kecik lagi, arwah tak pernah pukul aku, tak pernah tengking aku walau sekalipun. Aku sendiri begitu bodoh tak pernah nak menghargai waktu-waktu indah aku ade bersama sewaktu die masih ade lagi. Al-fatihah buat arwah Shahizal Bin Sani…

Lupekan tentang cinta dan persahabatan yang dikhianati tu. Kerana sememangnya aku dah bangkit semula dengan diri aku yang baru. There are obviously countless events and tragedies that happened to me throughout the years. Aku masuk university, aku dapat jumpe semula orang yang aku rindu2, hehehe. Aku pun dapat shopping banyak2 haha! Tapi pelajaran aku tu lah yang semakin sengal.

Enough of 2009, now it’s 2010. Yang aku harapkan pada tahun ini adalah:
1-aku dapat menjadikan diri aku ni insan yang berguna
2-aku akan terus cuba untuk meningkatkan amalan-amalan aku, dan terus jaga hubungan aku dengan Tuhan dan sesame manusia, insya-Allah
3-aku nak belajar bersungguh-sungguh sebab dah banyak bende yang aku dan family aku korbankan, sedangkan aku sewenang-wenangnya mengabaikan ape yang diorang dah amanahkan pada aku
4-aku nak quit jadi reformed shopaholic. Dah terlalu banyak duit aku spent tok shopping. Hahaha.
5-aku nak cuba jadi kawan yang tak terlalu care pasal orang. Aku dah bosan rasa tak dihargai oleh certain people cos it was destroying me in the past actually.
6-aku nak dapatkan lesen memandu secepat mungkin, hehe. Aku dah boleh drive cume xde lesen je.
7-aku berdoa supaya dapat jumpe ngan soulmate aku yang aku harapkan betol2 dapat bombing aku ke jalan yang betul dan boleh wat aku lupekan segala kesedihan yang aku pernah alami.
8-aku nak jadi anak, adik, bapa saudara yang berbakti kepada keluarga aku. Aku nak jadi contoh yang terbaik, yang aku harapkan dapat wat aku rasa berbangga dengan diri aku sendiri.
9-aku nak tuntut bela di atas apa yang aku pernah rasa. Aku takkan pernah lupe ape yang pengkhianat tu dah wat kat aku. Aku takkan maafkan diorang.
10-aku nak ade tubuh badan yang sehat dan tak sakit2 selalu. Aku nak kawal pemakanan aku, serta jaga kesihatan lebih2 lagi berat badan nie.

There is always chance for people to make changes actually. It depends on how they take it, be it seriously or kinda goofing around. Insya-Allah 2010 akan menjadikan aku insan yang lebih sejati, amin ya rabbal alamin…

IT IS STREET SMARTZ GO AGAIN!

2009-12-30T06:03:00.000-08:00

Aku pergi KL sorang je 24hb malam tu. I had the last bus dr KT ke KL. Transnasional. Dalam bas tu, agak payah nak tido sebab sejuk, tangan aku mcm dah beku n bisa2. I took pils to take a nap.

Bas aku sampai kt hentian putra pukul 5.45am. Aku call syafiq, die cakap jap lagi die amek aku. Agak lame la aku tunggu die tapi x kesahlah sebab aku cakap bas aku tibe kt KL kul 7am. Kene la gigit nyamuk sikit hehe. Then sebelum capik ngan lin sampai, aku gi beli tiket dulu tuk balik ke KT. Bas pukul 10 malam.

Hm lebih kurang kul 7.45 capik ngan lin smpai. Then diorang bwak aku g makan dulu dekat ampang tu. Capik belanja nasi lemak. Woah agak sedap, plus2 dah lame x makan nasi lemak hehe. Then kitorang balik umah die jap bagi aku mandi2 sume. Well, sorry beb u guys tpakse tunggu agak lame psal syuk nie mmg lame sikit nak bsiap haha. Maklumlah orang bujang!

First, we went to mid valley. Couple tu bawak aku masuk kedai pet tau! Haha. Hamsters di situ sangat comel! Ade glider, ade kucing, ular, iguana pun ade. Entah camane aku boleh terkejut ngan rabbit hitam kat citu, kantoi beb aku takot binatang, hehe!

Shopaholic memulakan tugas! Mau cari selipar, tapi mcm xde je yg berkenan. Masuk jusco ingat nak cari la baju tuk dipakai hari2. Tapi sayangnye baju2 yg offer kt citu sume ketat2 la walaupun saiz XL. Pastu ade wallet tau, Swiss Polo beb! Diskaun 70% hehe. Tapi diorang cakap kt sungei wang lagi banyak. So batalkan niat. Kat mid tu aku beli tshirt Giordano je 2 helai.

Then syafiq ngan lin bawak aku gi berjaya times square. Rupenya baru aku sedar aku pernah masuk TS dulu mase kecik2 sebab tpandangkan theme park kt citu, seram kot pasal tinggi giler. Dah lah aku nie gayat! Haha. Harus berpijak di bumi yang nyata. Toi lambat lagi nak sampai. Lepas jalan2 dalam tu, kami makan chicken rice kat food court sambil bual2 kosong. Semayang jumaat skip la, kami kan musafir haha. Lepas makan, kami jalan2 lagi. Aku beli selipar Edwin, tu pun lin tolong pilihkan. Aku lak dah buntu, mcm nak beli sume selipar je haha. Br aku teringt hatta nak shawl. Aku pun beli shawl warna hitam n coklat kat die. Hehe. Mesti pok tu suke. Toi sampai lambat sikit sebab bas die lambat. Kitoang amek die kat Hang Tuah LRT Station. Apela sengal tol, orang suh pergi bawah stesen tu je, nie die gi sampai underground hehe. Selamat jumpe!

Then kami gi suria KLCC. Aku ajak diorang gi Pavilion tapi jauh lak. Aku beli tshirt kat PDI, ngan 2helai baju DIESEL kat isetan. Satu tuk aku, satu tuk capik. Toi pun ade beli baju PDI Authentics kat isetan tu. Lawa doe baju die, jeles gua, tapi xpelah. Hehe. Yang penting, aku dah ade. Tak berape lame lepak sana sebab kami dah kepenatan. Makan roti boy je, haha. Manis2, sedap2! Kat citu ade waterfront, sempatlah amek gmbr sikit2 haha. Kenangan lah katekan. And to me it was a thing yang cukup2 mengharukan.

Dah penat rambling around tu, kami pun balik lah. Tapi toi nak singgah al-ikhsan jap nak beli but. Punyelah lame nak memilih sebab xde saiz lah. But it is what shopping takes – surveying, trying, and getting buy.  pas anta lin balik, baru kami balik umah capik. Sampai je kat umah, kitorang duduk2 jap sembang sambil2 toi n capik try baju yang aku beli tok diorang tu. Haha. Pilihan syuqet selalu tepat maaa! Smart2! Jangan nangis sudah!

Malam tu kitorang kuar nak pergi uptown kat danau kota tapi belum bukak lagi. So kitorang pusing2 je kat area situ. Makan jap kat medan selera bunga tanjung. Best doe! Serius ar! Balik tu, capik ngantuk, so aku yang drive. Hahaha. Toi dok depan jadi penunjuk arah, tapi hampeh, x hafal jalan haha. Entah cmne malam tu nak parking keta kat umah capik, aku leh tlanggar pokok bonsai kat tepi tu! Aku cuak seh! Nak nangis da sebab takot! Calar la sikit side mirror, tapi x lah ketara sangat. Bodo lah kau syuk!

Capik masuk tido awal. Lepak ngan toi sambil borak2 dalam bilik. Bukak ar citer pasal bende2 bodoh nie sume, ngan problem masing2. Die tunjuk gambar2 die kat upm sume. Ntah lah rase macam aku pn tumpang gembira bile tengok mber2 kite happy di mane je diorang berada. Then liyana call. Aku pun da ngantuk so aku pun menidurkan diriku. Dak blur tu tido kul bape pun aku x tahu.

Besok pagi kami bangun quite lambat ar. Pas siap sume, aku tolong ar angkat2 barang toi masuk keta capik. First kitorang sarap dulu kat kedai mamak kat2 citu. Nak amek kuman tapi die ngah kat umah auntie die. So lambat sikit ar baru kitorang amek die.
Pas makan, capik bawak kitorang gi wangsa maju sebab die nak cari seluar rugby. Entah la punyela payah gile nak mencari. Aku dah kemabukan. Die ciap leh bawak laju mcm pantat lagi. Dah jumpe kedai tu, skali kedai tu dah tutup. Fuh! Menyirap! Aku lak kat stesen minyak, gi beli gula kapas yg warna pink tu. Fuh best doe! Kepala aku terhantuk kat kereta sebab aku lompat masuk keta, da capik gi gerakkan, aku ingt die saje je nak maenkan. Haha. Cuak pun korang ea bila aku cakap kepala aku bdarah!

Sementara tunggu kuman balik umah tu, capik bawak aku ngan toi gi jalan2 kat kawasan perumahan kt ulu klang tu ala yg kat tepi2 zoo negara tu. Bapak besar rumah orang2 kat citu. Then kitorang amek aiman kat umah die kat ukay perdana. Besar siot! Kaye betol la mamat blur nie! Die pelawa masuk tp, no thanks. Kami nak jalan2! Haha.
First kami makan kat oldtown kat waterfront. Aku order fav food aku, hainanese chicken chop n rice, ngan mocha. Toi punye pun sama macam aku, cume air hazelnut. Aku belanja diorang makan sume. Mahal tu memang la, tpi mber punye pasal dow, mati pun aku sanggup.

Perjalanan street smartz seterusnya adalah menghala ke Bandar tasik selatan. Nak hantar toi balik umah pakcik die kat sana. Mase tu hujan lebat. Punyelah payah kami mencari kampong Malaysia tambahan tu. Berpuluh2 kali sesat. Banyak kali wat U-turn. Toi lak x tau jalan. So menggunakan instinct aku yg hebat nie dan ketidakmaluan, aku bertanya pd orang tepi jalan. Aku suh capik masuk sana, masuk sini. At last jumpe gak. Ntah nape hati aku sebak sangat. Mungkin sebab aku pun x pernah kuar jalan2 ngan toi. And lately aku rapat ngan die. Adelah gugur gak setitik dua air mata, tapi itulah persahabatan, ade mase berjumpa ade mase bpisah. Tapi sentiasa dekat dalam hati. Insya-Allah. Goodbye toi.

Pastu capik anta kuman lak balik umah auntie die kat bukit antarabangsa. Dekat je ngan umah die tu. Da nak masuk simpang BA tu, leh plak alarm keta capik x berhenti2 bunyi. Tibe2 je. Sampai kat umah auntie aiman, uncle die putuskan wayar alarm tu, haha. Kitorang masuk jap dalam umah tu, minum2 petang sikit, jumpe la sebahagian besar family aiman. Happy aku rase tengok sifat kekeluargaan yg masih lg menebal dlm kuarga aiman. Mak aiman leh lak cakap aku ngan capik adek beradek pasal muke hamper same haha.diorang sume pesan suh nasihatkan aiman, n jangan putuskan persahabatan nie. Nape la ayat mak die tacing sangat sampai menimbulkan rase kesedihan kat hati aku? Hmmm…. Goodbye aiman…

Sampai umah capik, aku duduk2 jap bork2 ngan die, die citer la pasal amende die blajar ka MFA tu. Menarik doe. Suke lak aku dengar. Susah kot course die tu, tapi aku yakin capik leh wat! Pas kemas2, aku mandi. Maghrib tu aku smyg jemaah ngan capik. Die imamkan aku. Ntah nape sayu hati nie bile aku dpt rse ketenangan dlm jiwa. Kalau lah dari dulu lagi aku selalu smyg ngan diorang.

Malam tu aku balik. Bas kul 10pm. First amek lin dulu kat umah die. Then gi makan malam kat tanjung. Sampai kat hentian putra dalam pukul 9.20pm. capik tunggu jap sebab aku pi amek nombor bas kat kaunter tiket trans. Aku pikir lame lak capik ngan lin nak tunggu. So aku masuk keta jap, aku ckp ngan diorang balik jelah. Aku boleh tunggu sorang. X lame lagi pun. Capik tolong angkat barang2 aku, kitorang salam, peluk sume. Pastu diorang pun balik la. Lin pesan jgn nagis2 hahaha.

Itulah cerita yg aku dapat kongsi ngan korang sume stkat nie. Sebuah perjalanan yg pendek tapi indah n penuh makna. Kadang2 kite x dapat menjangkau sejauh mane keindahan n kemanisan bersahabat, sehinggalah kite bpisah. Itu adalah kenangan yg terharga, x dapat dijual n dibeli. Dan rasanye janggal pabila kite dah selalu bersama ngan sahabat itu, makan, tidur bersama, n bile kite bangun pada esok harinye, die sudah tiada. Hanya bau sahaja yang dapat kita hidu. Betapa diri kita tak menyedari betapa sayangnye kite terhadap seseorang itu sehinggalah die lenyap dari pdangan mate. N street smartz, akan kekal dlm hati aku wat selama2nya. Salam persahabatan.

IT’S 23.12. BABEH!

2009-12-30T06:00:00.000-08:00

Well, like Kash always shouted out in facebook, it has totally been a day that I could never forget. Today, it had few troubles and prosperous moments happened to me. Let me talk about the troubles first. Last Tuesday evening, I received a call from someone who informed me to see Dr Juriffah, head of department of chemistry in UMT regarding my application to program exchange. Next day, I went to her office at 8am but she was not still in. the assistant told me that she would be coming late, maybe around 10am. Then I went to cyber café and had an unexpectable thing on facebook – liyana izzati added me as friend. Well, it was a surprise to me! Haha. Then I precede a straight going to that office again and she was not there, still. I called iswatun and she helped me getting through the lecturer. I actually wondered why she wanted to see me. Then I gave Dr. Juriffah a call. She asked me why I wanted to change my course into chemical sciences. And she also asked me what my chemistry result was in matrix. When I told her that I got B+ and C for the subject, to my surprise, she yelled at me on the phone, “huh, itu ke yang kamu cakap minat kimia? Orang kalau minat kimia akan dapat A tau. Result kamu sangat teruk untuk masuk ke kimia.” And she also, nonchanlantly told me, “permohonan awak saya tolak”. Just like that! She’s a fucking moron, she’s daughter of a bitch! I can still accept that my application was declined, but the way she behave has totally disturbed my mind! These are our people. When they have been successful, they would treat some people like us very badly. I’m so sorry for her. She does not have the manner. If only she talked to me very gently and properly, I would accept the fact willingly. And right now, I was totally fucked off chemistry just because of her! You suck bitch! You have no manner, and I would just pray that Allah would repay you in the most possible way. Amin! Well, the dream fell apart again. It’s my destiny I guess. Then at 7.30pm I went out with Hatta and Jimmy to the town. They both went shopping stuffs in mydin and then I took them along to see kuman. I have the car driven with my hands, hahaha. Well, it was such a pride too that I knew I could have gone driving that far, in quite congested traffic, and almost got probed by JPJ. Hahaha. Anyway, it was worth it at all coz I could have met kuman for the last time before he departs to Egypt, Alhamdulillah. Anyway he was such a blurred buddy. Die cakap umah nenek die dekat je ngan pantai batu buruk, tapi last2 skali, kitorang punyelah kepayahan nak mencari sebab rupa2nye jauh lagi. Tapi naseb baek la dapat gak jumpe. Haha. I was such a good driver, too. Aku bawak diorang sume gi makan dekat2 citu. Then kul 10 suku gitu aku anta die balik umah nenek die, sebab keta sewa tu kedai tutup pukul 11. Memang agak payah la aku nak berpisah ngan die. I almost cried! Jimmy cakap kalau aku tak boleh drive, bg lah die bwak. Tp xpe, aku still boleh focus lagi. Hari tu, aku dapat satu kepastian. Untuk jumpe ngan orang yg kite btol2 sayang, kita sanggup lakukan ape saje, insya-Allah. Well, it’s 23-12 babeh!

THE HUSTLE AND BUSTLE OF MY LIFE!

2009-12-19T00:25:00.000-08:00

It has been few months ago I did not post anything in here due to the busy days with the chock-a-block schedule in college. Well, there were times that I had both thick and thin. That is life. We must go after life and make a choice, or choice makes us. Throughout the days, I could have found the real meaning of the word responsibility. All the things in the earth do have relationship towards responsibility – love, friendship, task etc. But that’s not what I actually want to mention much in here. All that I want to speak out is about the hustle and bustle of my life. Aku rasa skang nie aku tgah fuck giler ngan idup aku. Aku rase macam nak terjun je dalam laut, x pun dr bangunan tinggi sebab aku da frustrated giler ngan ape yang aku rase skang. Tp x logic ar kan, kite nie owg islam so x leyh la wat camtue. Mati dlm keadaan kafir ler, haha. Kat Terengganu nie, kadang2 panas, kadang2 redup, kadang2 ujan lebat. Macam jugak ape yg aku rase. Seakan cuace nie pun memahami aku. Haha. Jiwang lak kan. Aku balik je umt nie, aku terus settle mslah hutang aku ngan u nie. Penat aku gi sana sini, mule2 gi hepa, pastu gi cimb, then gi FST then gi hepa pastu gi semule fst, pastu br settle n balik. Peh! Penat doe! Result aku pn hancur da. Mls ar nak cakap. Yang penting, aku da anta boring nak tukar cos dr fizik elektronik n instrumentasi nie ke sains kimia. Aku arap ar bia dpt tukar cos. Aku seksa ar beb dok kt sc fizik nie. Mcm cibai jerk payahnye. Skang nie pun ade ar sket gado2 ngan mber, tu bese ar. Aku pn sorang2 je skang. Kt kelas pn, aku lepak ngan dak cina je. Dorang alright ar, kite pn jd ar sopan dan santun sket kan? Huhu. Terlalu byak masalh mbelenggu diri nie. So penyelesaiannya, aku tiap2 mlm amek pil panadol actifast yang 500mg sbijik tu, aku amek byk2, wat pil tido.and it does totally help biar pun ade sikit complication nak tdo, mcm kaki saket2. Bese ar, da name pun x saket tp amek pil yg kuat, mmg ar nak cari penyakit., tp pduli ape, janji hati aku jd tenang, n aku lega dr perasaan kotor nie sume. Tp byk effect ar aku amek pil nie. Nti aku ingat nak beli pil tidur je. Lg bgus, tido je trus. Xyah tggu sakit2 haha. Well, aku skang ngah fuck gak ngan orang nie la. Aku slalu ar ngan die mase kt matrik dulu. Name die biarla aku rhsiakan. Tp yang pasti, kitorng memang dekat sangat ar. Sepanjang kat matrik, die mmg x penah wat pape pun kt aku. Tp aku nie punyela jage die waktu die saket, belikan die itu ini. Aku bukan nak mengungkit, tp nie la reality yg ade dlm psahabatan. So nak dipendekkan cter, die skg blaja kt negara orang. Da la die gi sana x bgtau aku. Aku contact die kat facebook pun, die x reply pon. Padahal sikit je aku anta, aku tye kabar je. Aku da bengang, terus aku block je die dr friends aku. Aku malas dah nak piker pasal die. You are such a fucking fake friend! Kau boleh gi mampos! Beribu lg kawan lg bgus dr kau la!

MALAYSIA'S YEAR END SALE!!!

2009-12-19T00:23:00.000-08:00

Sebagai seorang shopaholic, aku rase mmg teruja giler ar ngan sale2 nie, lebih2 lagi year end sale nie sebab sume barang yg aku nak mmg byak giler diskaun la! Hahaha! Paling2 rendah pun 20%! Haha! Oh ye, hari tu 24hb November kan, bday Toi tau ! *wink*… hehehe. And I was thinking of getting him some kind of quality, latest apparel. Hehehe. But I was first desperately running out of money at that time. Mujurlah aku punye duit Yayasan Nelayan Malaysia tu dah masuk as much as RM500, aku beli lah barang2 dapur kat umah tue, bagi mak ayah aku lagi, habislah dalam RM100 lebih. Yang selebihnya aku amek. Mule2, aku ingt nak teman mak aku gi check up kt HSA jumaat tue. Sebab sabtu aku da nak balik ganu. Aku ingt kalau dah dapat uit tu, aku nak bwak Syafiq (anak sedare aku) gi jalan2 kat Tebrau City sebab nak smbut bday die plus shopping skali. Tapi x jadi sebab kak fizah amek aku gi umah die hari selasa malam tue. Aku dah tensen ar, cmane aku nk shop nti nie. Da la uit xde, kantoi lak lg klu nak beli untuk toi hehe. Syuk2! Aku masam je muke. Malam tu, abg wan amek aku dr nusajaya umah abg mie gi tido kt umah die kt senai. Esoknya, mase ngah maen game super Mario, kak fizah tepon cakap die nak amek aku ngan mak petang tu sebab abg mi balik keje awal n nak bwak aku gi shopping hhuhu. Tau pun adek bongsu die nie kuat shopping. Tp nie aku kene shop tuk diri aku jela. Tensen lg sbenarnye. So malam tu abg mi bwak kami gi JJ Bukit Indah. Die belikan aku sandal Capilano RM69.90 ngan kemeja RENOMA RM120.00. Puh selamat la year end sale kan, so ade la diskaun sket, huhuhu. Lagi die belikan aku stationery utk blajar la. Malam tu ayah tepon bgtau yang uit YANEM tu dah sampai. Ayah aku dah amek sikit. Xpelah. Subuh esoknya, aku x sempat nk bgun salam ngan abg mie sbb die dah kuar gi keje. Aritu die outstation kt semarang, Jakarta, rindu lak kat abg aku kecik sorang tu. Pagi tu, aku cakap ngan mak ngan kakfizah yang aku nak balik umah. Die cakap nti die anta aku kt larkin je. Nie pada hari kamis. Pagi tu, die bwak kami gi PPD JB tuk uruskan hal sek saiful, die mintak masuk SSI tp dpat interview masuk English College of JB. Orait ar. Pastu gi Library Sultan Ismail pulangkn buku yg kanak2 nie pinjam n then gi larkin beli Apollo hehehe. Pastu baru die anta aku kat larkin. Sampai kt tanjung, ayah amek aku n aku beli brang dapur gune uit aku la. Byk gak aku beli. Balik umah, tengok2 ayah aku x masak. Ntah ape die ngan ili makan kt umah. So aku pun memulakn tugas sebagai anak bongsu masak la pe yg patot. Sok pagi dalam kul 8.30 ili anta aku kat tanjung sebab aku mau gi jalan2 kt TC. Syafiq tak ikut, jaga adek die x sehat kt umah., cian lak kt die tu, adoi. Aku jalan sorang2 je, sampai je kat TC tu kul 11.10 gitu la. Penat dowh berlari haha. Aku contact Toi nak confirmkan bape saiz apparel die tp die ngah tido lg. geram tol. Grrr! Aku dah lame x jumpe die, so x bleh la nak anggarkan die cmne skg kan, hehe. So aku pun memulakan tugas sebagai shopaholic tuk membelikn toi apparel yg paling orait pd aku. TC tu da la besar kot. Mule2 aku round kt tingkat bawah. Aku windows-shop dulu. Dari satu kedai ke kedai yg laen. Yang aku ingat aku masuk BRITISH-INDIA, VALENTION RUDY, TOPSHOP & TOPMAN, ESPRIT, QUIKSILVER, TIMBERLAND, HUSH PUPPIES, SUBZERO JEANS and the rest kat bwah tu da x ingt. Aku survey harga, kualiti dan mutu dulu. Haha. Kat ESPRIT ade baju orait, tapi sluar tux de diskaun lak. Sial je. Aku mau satu set lengkap jenama tu je, so REJECTED. Masuk topman, lg aku nyampah. Aku sakit mate tengok sluar skinny ngan top die tu. Da xde pattern laen agaknye. REJECTED! Timberland x mau, sume x mau. Masuk SUB paling sial. Kan sume baju clubbing. Tpi diorang pun x banyak diskaun. Baju pmpuan ade la byk diskaun, tp laki haprak! Da la aku geram tengok sume baju die. Tp aku x pasti toi suke tak kan. So, it was sorry to say, REJECTED. Tugas seterusnye blangsung di tingkat dua, masih lg btempat di dalam TC, hehe. Kedai wajib pergi, PADINI. Haha. Tapi mcm biase, aku windows shop dulu. Aku gi masuk PADINI, GIORDANO, FILA, AL-IKHSAN, THE REJECT SHOP, banyak lagi la smpai aku sendiri tak ingt. Pas round tu, aku masuk last skali kat jusco. Macam shit je, lawa sial RENOMA ngan BUM Equipment aku tengok! Aku dah macam ketagih je, kalau boleh nak beli sume bende kt ctu! Mule2 aku nak beli gak tuk diri aku, tp aku piker byak dah baju aku, so tahan jela. Renoma ngan BUM mmg lawa, tp yg aku malas nye sebab kalau beli pun, dapat plastic jusco je and it is definitely something yang aku x boleh sebab aku lebih suke pd plastic bag yg jenama laenm huahua! Dengan hati yg berat, aku melangkah keluar dr jusco n menuju kembli ke PADINI The Concept Store. Banyak gak diskaun tp ntah nape kali nie aku mcm x berapa nak ttarik sgt kt citu, mybe sebab aku dah biase kot, hmm. Aku kt ctu lame gak la. And then aku masuk je kt sebelah die, GIORDANO. Sial aku baru prasan khakis + jeans die cume rm138 je. Kalau single je, rm79. Cool lak. N then aku tengok die punye shirt. Ade yg latest, ade yg lame, aku x tngok yang lame pun, aku mau yg latest haha. Mamat cina tue da senyum2 dah pasal aku sndri rambang mate tengok sume baju tue. Aku kuar lagi masuk balik padini. Aku ckp dlm hati, skng nie samada padini atau Giordano yg aku akn beli. Padini tu, ade baju cntik, tp jeans die x berape nak orait la. Tp harga leh tahan murah, mmg dlm bajet aku ar. So aku pun decide, aku akn beli di GIORDANO! Wajib! Haha! Aku masuk, mamat tu tolong la aku. Aku x beli khakis tuk toi sebab nti die kuar gi mane2 senang. Nak smyg x yah tukar sluar or kain. Lagipun tutup aurat sket, aku x mau die jd mcm aku, haha. Jd ustaz lak. Aku amek jeans. Nak cari saiz 31 takde sbb die cume ade saiz yg nombor genap. aku bandingkn atr saiz 30 ngan 32, lbh kurg je, so aku amek 32. Sebab klu longgar sket pun, die bleh gune belt. Jeans siap! Next, baju! Aku tengok ar puas2, aku pun amek yg bkenan, yg latest pye. Aku tinggal pilih wrna putih or hitam. Mamat cina tu ckap “stylo maa u pye pilihan” hahaha. Sengal tol. Aku amek warna putih sbb lebih pdn ngan jeans tu. So berakhirlah sebuah pencarian. Aku dah mencarikan untuk toi sepasang apparel yg aku hrp die akn suke. Jumlah sume biarlah dirahsiakan, tp for sure, mmg melebihi hrga baju aku sndri haha. Tp x kesahlah. Yg pnting aku puas n toi hapy! Yahoo! X sbar aku nak bg kt die. Ape yg aku mampu cakap kt die, TQ FOR U HAVE BEEN ONE OF THE MOST SPECIAL PERSONS IN MY LIFE AND I HOPE THE CAMAREDERIE WOULD LAST FOR A LIFETIME. INSYA-ALLAH BRO! even though aku x beli pape tuk diri aku, tapi aku puas. Aku dapat rasakan perubahan yang ketara dalam diri aku, as I am growing up. Be it taste or anything, it does differ! Fuhh!

Ek Patha Hai Mera!

2009-12-16T03:27:00.000-08:00

Naaginn menangis bila dia dilukai. Tapi di matanya tergambar wajah-wajah manusia binatang yang sudah merosakkan kebahagiannya. Naaginn bersumpah yang dia akan menuntut bela di atas setiap satu kesakitan yang dialaminya. Sumpah naaginn adalah dia akan memberikan maut yang sangat menakutkan kepada setiap manusia durjana itu sehingga pada setiap kelahiran akan datang, roh mereka sendiri akan gentar dan terseksa dengan perkataan “hidup” itu. Dan apabila roh mereka terdengar nama naaginn itu, roh itu sendiri akan hancur berkecai! Ingat, naaginn takkan sesekali mengampunkan dosa-dosa laknat itu. Naaginn akan mencari mangsanya dengan dendam kesumat yang membara di mata. Kerana sumpah naaginn itu akan dia tunaikan walaupun dirinya sendiri akan terkorban, namun rohnya tetap akan gentayangan sehingga di kelahiran seterusnya, dan akan meneruskan tujuan yang satu – menuntut bela! Hidup naaginn! Hidup ular jelmaan yang berdendam! Hidup pemburu dosa! Hidup pelunas dendam kesumat! Bunuh mereka dengan bisa seorang naaginn, bisa Vasuki, dari naaginn yang bernama Amrita!
Pada hari di mana ia dilukai, naaginn telah bersumpah atas namanya untuk melunaskan hutang yang bernama dendam terhadap insan yang menghancurkan kehidupannya. Jelas tergambar di matanya wajah-wajah pengkhianat itu. Namun setelah menemui cinta sejatinya, naaginn telah melupakan dendam yang membara itu. Walaubagaimanapun, kini naaginn telah sedar bahawa bukan cinta yang dia cari, tapi sebuah jalan untuk melaksanakan pembalasan. Naaginn harus mengorbankan cinta bahkan nyawanya hanya untuk mencapai matlamat itu. Dendam manusia boleh dilupakan, namun dendam naaginn takkan pernah terpadam dan ia alpa akannya! Aku menyeru kepadamu wahai ular jelmaan yang berdendam, bangkitlah kau dari kelemahan! Hapuskan pengkhianat serta pendusta itu! Kau telah dihidupkan atas sebuah tujuan yang teramat pasti – membayar hutang dendam itu. Seekor naaginn takkan pernah gentar pada lawannya kerana naaginn adalah makhluk yang istimewa dan berkuasa. Ichadhari naaginn, waadon ki agni pariksha mein, jalti naaginn, jalti naaginn! Bangkitlah Amrita, bangkit dari persemadian kelemahanmu! Bunuh mereka!

Half Alive

2009-12-16T03:12:00.000-08:00

I’m half alive. That would be, perhaps, the best way to describe the way I feel right now. Sometimes, it just happened to me to be in total loneliness, I have nobody beside me when I need them. And sometimes I feel like the world is all mines when I have those I love beside me and when they speak profusion of words of love and friendship towards me. Let me be honest, it is all about the videos from my friends for me before we left the matriculation college. It did bring me back to the mesmerizing air I had there, full of friendship with jokes and obstacles we needed to overcome. A friendship has never been by without a single obstacle I guess. None of any friendship is perfect. But I was trying to throw out that negative prescription of this mind. When I watched the videos, I felt so much of divine. But the most frequent question that puzzles my mind is that, do they mean their words? I am not saying that all of them spoke to me a tale for my ongoing to bed, but I just happen to startle if they do. I’m not actually ready to take up the possibilities as I am afraid to be at lost. God, what should I do now? I’ve been driven at a junction whom I don’t know what my next whereabouts will be. Should I just go straight, or turning left or right, or back off and turn back? The plot thickens as I’m not very sure of myself. Yet, I bear in mind that I need to have myself looking forward the straight line, that I know promises me loads of obstacles I must, intriguingly, overcome. When there is a hill to climb, don’t think that waiting can make it smaller Syukri.

gema suara hati

2009-12-07T20:55:00.001-08:00

Sebagai hamba Allah, kita tak akan sesekali pernah tidak melakukan kesilapan, sama ada kita sedari atau pun tidak. Pun begitu, Tuhan itu Maha Adil, Penyayang, Pemurah dan Maha Pemberi Petunjuk. Kadang-kadang kita terlalu leka dengan kehidupan dunia dan mengabaikan tugas yang paling utama dalam hidup kita – menyembah Allah Yang Maha Esa. Sesungguhnya hanya kepada Dialah tempat kita mengadu dan meminta segala-galanya. Puji dan syukur yang setinggi-tingginya dipanjatkan ke hadrat Allah Taala di atas limpah kurnia dan inayah-Nya yang diberikannya kerana kini aku menyedari betapa setiap satu kepahitan yang kita lalui sepanjang hidup ini sebenarnye menjanjikan pulangan dalam bentuk kegembiraan dan kebahagiaan yang tak tergambar keindahannya, yang tak terungkap dengan kata-kata. Seringkali aku memikirkan kenapa aku dilahirkan dalam dunia yang penuh dengan pancaroba ini. Seringkali aku meratapi setiap ketidaksempurnaan dalam hidup yang ku rasakan pahit ini. Seringkali juga aku terduduk menangisi setiap carik luka dan parut yang terlakar di hati. Kenapa aku mesti menempuhi dugaan sehebat ini Ya Tuhan? Kenapa mesti aku? Ini adalah apa yang aku rasakan sewaktu dulu. Aku mempunyai sebuah keluarga yang besar namun aku tak rasa tenang dan aku gagal hayati apa yang dimaksudkan dengan keluarga yang sakinah. Aku mempunyai persahabatan namun aku tak pandai mencari makna persahabatan yang sejati. Aku punyai naluri untuk mencintai namun aku tak tahu membezakan yang mana satu adalah jodoh sama ada dari jin, syaitan atau pun Allah. Aku punyai ilmu namun aku tak tahu ke mana sepatutnya aku kibarkan sayap ilmuku itu. Aku punyai hati namun aku sendiri tidak dapat menghitung betapa tak terkiranya noda hitam yang terlakar di dalamnya. Aku punyai tubuh badan yang sempurna namun aku tak bijak menghargai sebaik-baik ciptaan Tuhan kepada hamba-Nya ini. Aku punyai agama namun aku tidak melakukan setiap perintah yang agama aku arahkan, seolah-olah aku meruntuhkan tiang agamaku sendiri. Mungkin perkataan Islam itu hanya terletak pada kad pengenalan ku sahaja, bukan dalam diriku. Betapa diri ini menyesali setiap perbuatan dan khilaf yang telah aku sendiri lakukan. Semuanya bersebab dan sebabnya ialah diriku sendiri. Dan sesungguhnya keinsafan telah mengajak diri ini merenung kembali tujuan kita berkelana di muka bumi Allah ini. Dan sesungguhnya kita telah pun berjanji dengan Tuhan bahawa kita akan menjadi khalifah-Nya di bumi ini, namun kita telah lupa pada janji itu. Walaupun begitu, Allah masih menyayangi hamba-Nya. Dia tidak membiarkan kita untuk terus hidup dalam kesesatan yang nyata. Aku amat yakin bahawa Allah telah menunjukkan kepadaku jalan yang benar. Dia telah memberikan aku sebuah kesedaran bahawa Dia adalah Maha Penyayang terhadap hamba-hamba-Nya. Dia telah memberikan aku sebuah keinsafan yang membuatkan aku merenung sejenak betapa hidup ini adalah pinjaman bersifat sementara kurniaan-Nya. Allahu Akbar! Sesungguhnya hanya kepada-Nyalah kita beriman dan hanya Dia sahajalah yang kita sembah. Tiada Tuhan melainkan Allah. Terlalu berat dugaan yang ku alami selama ini hingga kering air mataku dek ketidaksanggupan aku untuk menghadapinya. Betapa aku tewas dalam perjuangan menentangnya. Namun, di sebalik air mata yang luruh di pipi ini, sebenarnya Dia ingin mengurniakan sekuntum senyuman yang indah terukir di bibir diri ini. Masih terngiang-ngiang kata-kata Heliza di dalam filem Syurga Cinta, “kadang-kadang Allah hilangkan mentari, Allah datangkan petir dan hujan. Puas kita merintih, merayu dan menangis, namun di sebalik hujan dan petir itu, Allah ingin memberikan kita pelangi.” Subhanallah! Aku juga tertarik dengan sebuah mesej kiriman sahabat yang berbunyi, “Dalam kita melangkah, terkadang kita diuji dengan ujian yang terasa berat sehingga kita terduduk dan menangis. Peritnya amat terasa. Tapi ketahuilah dan renungkanlah kembali ke dalam diri, kerana air mata tika itu hadir kerana Dia mahu kita menyulam kembali sejadah iman yang terkoyak lantaran ada langkah-langkah yang tersasar dari keikhlasan. Semoga kita tabah dan ditetapkan iman”. Maha Suci Allah, betapa indahnya kata-kata tersebut. Setelah aku renungkan kembali isi petikan mesej tadi, baru aku menyedari bahawa selama ini aku telah jauh tersasar dari landasan yang sepatutnya aku lalui. Begitu jauh aku tersasar. Sejadah iman itu bukan sahaja sudah terkoyak, malahan telah ku campak jauh hingga lenyap dari pandangan mata. Kitab suci Al-Quran itu telah ku tutup dan ku jadikan perhiasan semata-mata di atas mejaku, tidak ku jadikan seperti mana yang ia patut dijadikan – dibaca apabila jiwa kita merasa kosong dan tidak tenang. Telah ku simpan buku Surah Yasin entah di mana lantaran kesibukan dunia yang membelenggu diri. Saat diri ini merasa sangat hiba, kosong dan tidak tenteram, aku hanya menyia-nyiakan setiap detik waktu yang begitu berharga itu dengan melepak di pusat-pusat hiburan atau paling tidak pun di kafe siber melayari internet. Aku hanya tahu melayukan diri di pembaringan. Aku hanya tahu mengadu kepada sahabatku tentang masalah yang ku hadapi. Aku hanya tahu menangisi dan meratapi namun tidak menghayati dan mempelajari. Gelap seketika dunia ini ku rasa. Seolah-olah tiada lagi sinaran mentari Allah yang menyinari hidupku ini. Aku berasa tidak tenang dengan apa yang aku punyai selama ini. Aku sendiri tertanya-tanya kenapa mesti aku mengalami situasi ini. Aku tercari-cari jawapan yang pasti bagi persoalan itu. Pada suatu ketika aku merasakan aku akan mati kerana tekanan yang dialami, aku dapat merasakan seolah-olah telah ditiupkan ke dalam jasadku sebuah roh yang mengajakku untuk berubah untuk menjadi hamba Allah yang lebih baik. Aku baru menyedari bahawa telah banyak selama ini aku melakukan dosa dan kesilapan baik kecil mahu pun besar. Aku telah tersasar dari jalan yang sepatutnya aku lalui yang menjanjikan aku ketenangan dan kebahagiaan. Lantas aku membuka almariku, dan aku keluarkan sebuah sejadah berwarna coklat pemberian teman sebilikku di matrikulasi, Wan Muhamad Zharifzhafran sewaktu aku berkunjung ke rumahnya dulu. Ku kucup sejadah itu. Seakan-akan ingin menitis air mataku ketika itu mengenangkan betapa lamanya aku tidak mengendahkan sejadah itu di dalam almari itu, betapa jahilnya aku tidak menggunakan pemberian sahabatku itu untuk beribadah kepada Allah. Betapa dia merupakan seorang sahabat yang baik sudah mengajakku untuk beribadah. Ya Allah, aku menyayanginya keranamu! Aku terkenang kata-kata Hamzah, sesungguhnya sebaik-baik seorang sahabat itu adalah yang mendoakan sahabatnya di dalam solatnya serta mengajak sahabatnya itu mengerjakan ibadah. Kadang-kadang terlalu kerdil diri ini ku rasa dek kerana rasa malu yang menebal dalam diri di depan sahabatku itu. Ku bentangkan sejadah itu di lantai bilikku, lantas ku mengangkat wuduk dan ku tunaikan solat. Betapa tenang diri ini ku rasa kerana aku masih berpeluang untuk merasa kenikmatan solat itu. Aku bersujud kepada-Mu Ya Allah, Tuhan Yang Esa, tiada yang layak disembah melainkan Engkau. Betapa hinanya diri ini kurasa pabila menghadap Tuhan Sekelian Alam. Kadang-kadang aku merasakan aku harus menjalani kehidupan ini sendiri agar aku tidak akan menyusahkan insan-insan lain. Biarlah semua penderitaan itu aku yang tanggung. Kerana aku yakin hanya Allah lah yang mampu menghapuskan air mata duka itu. Ku lihat sahabatku, Hamzah, Ilyas, Zharif, Aiman, Hazim, Afuza, aku jadi cemburu. Aku ingin menjadi seperti mereka. Mereka adalah antara insan-insan yang sentiasa aku cuba untuk jadikan contoh dalam mengharungi arus kehidupan di depanku. Kerana segala kekuatan itu datang dari Allah dan kelemahan itu datang dari diriku sendiri. Aku bersyukur mempunyai mereka dalam hidupku. Tuhan, aku merindui mereka kerana-Mu. Izinkanlah aku memeluk mereka sejenak sebelum hilang nyawa dari jasadku ini. Sebuah keinsafan telah melahirkan keinsafan yang lain dalam diri. Tapi kini, aku sedang cuba mengotakan janji. Janji yang aku adalah hamba-Mu, janji aku kepada sahabat-sahabatku, janji kepada orang tuaku dan janji kepada diriku sendiri. Sebuah keinsafan itu hadir tepat pada waktunya. Sebuah keinsafan itu telah menjadikan aku Mohamad Syukri Bin Sani yang memahami apa itu sebuah keluarga sakinah, dan sedang membentuknya. Kerana sebuah keinsafan itu menjadikan aku seorang Mohamad Syukri Bin Sani yang dapat mengenali dan memahami apa itu erti sebuah persahabatan yang sejati. Kerana sebuah keinsafan itu menjadikan aku seorang Mohamad Syukri Bin Sani yang mempunyai naluri mencintai dan berusaha untuk mencari apa yang dikatakan jodoh dari Allah. Kerana sebuah keinsafan itu menjadikan aku Mohamad Syukri Bin Sani yang mencintai ilmu dan rela berkorban apa saja untuk meraihnya, ilmu dunia dan akhirat dan menebarkannya di muka bumi Tuhan ini. Kerana sebuah keinsafan itu menjadikan aku Mohamad Syukri Bin Sani yang mempunyai hati yang cuba menghapuskan noda-noda hitam yang terpahat padanya. Kerana sebuah keinsafan itu membuatkan aku seorang Mohamad Syukri yang berusaha menghargai setiap kurniaan Tuhan yang berupa tubuh badan ini untuk melakukan kebaikan dan meninggalkan kemungkaran. Dan kerana sebuah keinsafan itulah menjadikan Mohamad Syukri Bin Sani insan yang kerdil namun cuba untuk memenuhi tuntutan kehidupan beragama Islam yang patut dia lalui. Segala puji bagi Allah, Tuhan Yang Berkuasa Ke Atas Sekelian Alam! Allah Maha Besar! Ku harapkan keinsafan ini dapat menjadikan aku seorang aku.

dendam terbuku

2009-12-07T20:49:00.000-08:00

If this is going to be my very last post of life, I would just like everybody to know that I really had enough of friendship. And I have had also enough of the word friendship itself towards others. I may not be the best friend of you, but I have tried to. Aku korbankan cinta demi persahabatan, tapi aku x sangka kau korbankan persahabatan demi cinta. Aku mengalah, tapi ingat, aku tak akan maafkan kau seumur hidup aku. Allah yang akan membalas perbuatan kau! Seperti mana aku menangis, seperti itu jugak kau akan menangis. Aku x sangka kisah silam akan berulang kembali berlaku pada diri aku. Kau pengkhianat, kau pendusta, kau bukan kawan tapi kau lawan, musuh dalam selimut yang tak berani menonjolkan diri kau yang sebenar depan aku! Dan kau, juga pengkhianat terbesar! Sebab kau, aku merana seumur hidup aku. Kau talam dua muka! Kau pun pendusta. Sama seperti dia. Betapa banyak benda yang kita lalui bersama, namun semua itu tiade ertinye. Aku tak sangka betapa Allah nak tunjukkan pada aku noda yang terselindung di sebalik apa yang aku musykilkan. Sandiwara kau memang hebat! Terlalu hebat! Tapi sayangnya, sandiwara kau dah berakhir. Kau yang mulakan, sekarang aku yang mengakhiri segalanya. Cuma aku! Kau akan merasakan kesakitan dalam hati yang teramat sangat. Bila aku pergi darimu, usahlah kau tangisi kerana air mata kau waktu tu dah memang tak mampu memadamkan api dendam kesumat yang dah membara di mata ini. Kau, kenapa kau khianati persahabatan kita dengan mencintai dia? Bukankah sejak dulu lagi kau sendiri tahu betapa dalamnya cintaku padanya. Tapi kau bunuh cintaku! Kau bukan sahabat, tapi kau pengkhianat! Aku benci kau! Kau telah menghancurkan segenap naluri persahabatan aku kepada insan yang lain. Kenapa? Apa salahku padamu? Dan kau, kau tipu aku. Kau nafikan segala syak wasangka yang aku ada. Namun sebenarnya apa yang aku tebak itu memang benar! Tidakkah kau faham apa yang aku rasa? Tuhan, kenapa mesti aku mengalami semua ini? Ku rasakan seperti aku lebih baik mati sahaja. Tuhan, mereka bunuh cinta dan persahabatanku. Tuhan, mereka ragut kesabaranku. Tuhan, mereka mencabar kemarahanku. Tuhan, aku kah, atau mereka kah yang benar? Tuhan, tunjukkanlah kekuasaan-Mu kepada kami! Sejak cinta dan persahabatan itu dikhianati, aku rasakan aku hanya jasad yang tak bernyawa. Kadangkala ketabahan itu hadir dalam diri, tapi seringkali aku lemah menghadapi dan di bahu Hatta lah aku melepaskan segala kedukaan ini, hanya di bahunya lah air mataku tumpah, mengalir laju. Dan kalian, sungguh aku tak sangka tergamak kau tikam aku dari belakang. Kau dah benar-benar melampaui batas! Dan aku bersumpah di hari kau jatuh terduduk menangis dan meratapi, di saat itu lah kegembiraanku yang penuh kepuasan! Ingat, aku tak akan sesekali kutip kau biar apa pun yang terjadi kerana aku, sudah tidak punya apa-apa perasaan lagi buat kau. Aku sumpah hidup kau merana buat selama-lamanya. Semoga Allah akan kutuk kau selama-lamanya! Aku akan tuntut bela atas setiap air mata yang gugur, hati yang lara dan minda yang rosak kerana kau! Biarpun aku juga akan tewas di akhir nanti, tapi aku puas! Tapi kenapa sekarang aku merasakan aku begitu lemah? Kenapa? Kenapa kelemahan itu aku tanggung sendiri dengan keengganan sahabat-sahabatku untuk menolong? Inilah yang dikatakan kawan! Begitu mudah dicari waktu suka, dan hadirnya satu dalam berjuta kala duka. Hanya Hatta penguatku untuk terus berjuang. Aku benci penipu macam mereka! Aku benci! Apa salahku sampai kau membuatkan aku begitu terseksa seperti ini? Salahkah aku ingin mencintainya? Salahkah aku kerana aku ingin mendampinginya sehingga kau tergamak merampasnya serta meragut seluruh kebahagiaan yang aku punya? Dan kau, aku memang tak sangka kau hanya binatang! Nafsu syahwat telah membuatkan kau lupa pada segalanya! Inikah prinsip seorang ENGKAU? Penipu!

PENYAKIT, PUASA DAN BALIK KE KAMPUS

2009-08-27T02:43:00.000-07:00

Hari khamis tue, ayah ngan mak suruh aku gi klinik sebab batuk aku menjadi-jadi. Dalam bilik air mase ngah mandi, aku terbatuk n then aku keluarkan lah kahak aku tue, tengok2 ade setompok darah keluar bercampur ngan kahak tue. Mase check ngan doctor, mak pun terperanjat jugak. Doctor cakap mybe organ dalaman aku ade yang luke kecik, aku rase perot akulah kot. Sebab ble batuk je, perot mesti sakit. Die cek paru2 aku, normal je, cume tekanan darah aku naik sikit dari yang sebelum gi Pulau Bidong tu. Ubat aku harge die sume skali dekat RM40 lah jugak. Balik umah, aku makan ubat n rehat je. Hari jumaat tue plak, pagi2 lagi pukul 7 mak ngan ayah dah keluar sebab nak gi Hospital Sultanah Aminah pasal mak ade appointment ngan doctor berkaitan ngan breast cancer die dulu la. Pukul 10.30 pagi aku bangun, dah dengar bunyi kera melompat2 atas atap rumah. Bile aku jenguk kat tingkap, berpuluh2 ekor ade kat sekitar rumah tue. Aku halau la, buat bunyi “Shhhh”, pastu ade sekor kera nie nak terkam aku. Cepat2 aku tutup balik tingkap. Kera nie makin lame makin mengganas! Patut dihapuskan secepat yang mungkin! Tengahari ili balik. Die cuti puasa. Mak ayah sampai umah petang dengan 3 bungkus plastic Avon yang besar gedabak. Akak balik umah maghrib. Aku dah siap kemas dah barang2 sume nak balik kampus. Malam tue tidur awal pasal nak bangun sahur esok hari. Hah, aku bangun awal untuk sahur. Kul 4 aku bangun dengan mak tolong mak bersiap2 kat dapur. Yang lain tidur lagi. Last2 aku yang gi kejut sume. Pas abes sahur tu, aku kemas2 lah, basuh pinggan, lap lantai n buang sampah. Aku x tidur pun pas nye sahur, terus semayang subuh. Pastu mandi2 lah, kemas kan sikit lagi yang x kemas lagi dalam bag mcm laptop ngan kertas2 assignment tue. Pagi tue bawak motor gi beli surat khabar n gi umah Jah salam ngan die. Akak anta kat kote. Aku ade kat sanggar kote kul 10.25. bas pukul 10.45. hatta x sampai pun lagi. Die sampai pukul 10.50. selamat bas tu tunggu die kalau x mengangis lah kene tinggal haha. Dalam bas tue ade cosmate aku si syafiq. Sampai kat terminal bas KT kul 6.15.. sampai sana terus jumpe samad nak gi McD. Die nak bungkus tapi kitorang makan KFC. Mase kat citu, hatta tegur aku cakap yang die Nampak amir cosmate aku tue gak. Aku pun gi kat die ajak die buke same2 at kfc. Senyap je dak tue. Kitorang balik kampus naik van sapu, bayar RM5 sorang, memang mencekik darah tapi apekan daye nak balik punye pasal. Dan hari2 puase aku berterusan sehingga hari ini di UMT hehehe.

FUN DAY OUT!

2009-08-27T02:36:00.001-07:00

hatta n me, bestiez 4ever fatah n me

jom2 tengok movie

padini utk joy

padini utuk aku

Hari Rabu tue, aku dah janji dengan Hatta ngan Fatah nak kuar gi Tebrau City. Pagi2 lagi aku dah kuar umah pukul 7 lebih ayah anta kat Tanjung, tunggu bas dalam 20 minit. Luckily bas tue hanya tunggu orang dalam 10 minit je past uterus gerak, bahaha! Sampai kote tepat2 pukul 9.15, hatta dah terpacak ngan fatah kat bus stand tue. Kami pun naik lah bas maju gerak ke TC dengan tambang RM3.90 satu kepala! Sampai sana pukul 10.15 gitu, orang memang x ramai. Yelah shopping megamall mane lah yang best kalau orang sikit jerk. Sampai sana, kami terus gi JUSCO dlu untuk SHOPPING lah!!! Hahaha! Jusco skang tengah wat sale sampai 31 Ogos tapi bukan megasale lagi. Baju die boleh tahan murah tapi kat Jusco tue x banyak pilihan lah. Ape lagi, aku ngan diorang pun memulakan operasi windows shopping dulu kat seluruh butik dalam TC tue, Padini, Giordano, FILA, Nike, Cheetah, ESPRIT, Subzero, Mango, Timberland, Converse, sume skali lah. Awal2 tue aku survey je dulu. Pastu kitorang gi book tiket wayang dulu. Punyelah sengal nak gi beli tiket pun kitorang malu2! Hahaha! Tempahlah tiket movie G.I. Joe pukul 12.45pm kat cinema 2. Pastu, perot pun dah lapar dan operasi mencari KFC pun bermula sebab Hatta teringin sangat nak makan KFC. Ngidam kot, haha! Tapi, impian die hancur berkecai bile pengawal kat citu cakap KFC dah TUTUP dik!!! Hahaha! Nah rasalah kau! Pastu die nak Kelly Rogers lak. Nah amek kau makan sikit tapi mahal, lagi sekali diorang pakai cabut jer bile mamat waiter tue datang, dan aku lak control macho depan mamat tue cover malu hahaha! Bodoh lah korang! Hihihik! Last2 makan jelah kat food court tue amek Chicken Black Pepper Rice dengan milo suam, barli suam dan jugak laici haha! Okaylah makanan kat citu tapi sebab terlalu tergesa2, kami terlepas pandang makanan yang lagi best! Sial betine! Haha! Pas makan tue, gi lah tengok wayang. Best lah jugak cite G.I. Joe tue pasal minah due ekor tue hot giler babi! Haha! Terliur aku tengok body diorang! Hahaha! Dose2! Pas je abes tengok movie, aku gi tandas and I had to wait for 10 minutes for all the stupid men to keluar dari tandas tue. Takkan lah aku nak kencing kat mangkuk yang berdiri tue! Pastu gi cucuk duit jap, hatta ngan fatah turun bawah gi kedai buku. Aku pulak lain citer. Aku ape lagi, berulang alik masuk butik padini ngan Giordano pasal tak tahu nak pilih baju yang mane, huhuhu. Tapi sebab Giordano kurang elok sikit kain yang aku suke tue, so aku masuk padini je lah. Mula-mula, aku carikan baju untuk Joy. Punyelah payah aku nak pilih yang mane. Yang department yang mule2 aku gi tue agak murah, tapi baju die x smart lah. Pastu aku gi kat SEED lak, pun x berapa lawa sangat. Entah camane mase aku terpacak kejap sambil blur2 tue, tangan aku tertancap pada sehelai baju warna brown yang sangat lembut! Hahaha! Akhirnye aku dapat jugak cari baju untuk Joy. Harga die agak mahal, tapi at least aku puas hati, hehehe. Mesti joy happy. Terus aku mesej die tau tanye dia saiz M ke S. Aku amek S jelah. Pastu aku terus gi amek sehelai baju PDI yang sangat smart pade aku, saiz L ngan XL. Lawa dowh! Pastu aku gi lah test baju tue. Mase ngah test2 tue joy call. Menggelabah jap dalam fitting room tue haha. Aku cakaplah aku belikan die baju, wah happy nye die bukan main lagi hehe. Pastu baju aku amek saiz XL, ngan baju Joy skali, adelah jugak hamper mencecah RM100 due2 helai. Pastu aku gi butik Quick Silver beli beg eco-friendly tue yang sangat smart haha. Hatta ngan fatah dah jenuh menunggu I thought. Kitorang kuar awal la dalam pukul 4 gitu. Sampai je terus ade bas. Sampai kote, hatta ajak gi kedai die gi beli beg eco friendly tue jugak n round2 kat Dyna Jaya windows shopping. And then bile takde yang melekat kat hati die tue, kami masuk lah Gedung Harian pusing2 tengok baju. Peh mamat tue, x boleh blah shopping sakan kat Yung Fa butik tue hehehe. Giler la kau hatta! Fatah x beli pape pun, tapi rasenye die shop ngan abang die lah tue. Turun tingkat bawah aku beli lagi satu beg eco-friendly warna putih corak pink. Jambu habes! Haha. Pastu kami pun balik lah. Penat seyh, nak patah kaki aku nie. Sampai tanjung, ayah ajak gi pasar malam beli lah ayam goreng 3 ketul. Maghrib tue akak balik umah mak sebab kat tempat die blackout. Kecoh jap umah dengan adenye anak-anak sedare aku tue.

MID-TERM BREAK

2009-08-27T02:32:00.000-07:00

Orang lain kan, kalau dengar cuti mid-term jerk mesti melompat-lompat kegembiraan pasal akan balik rumah and then enjoy lepak2 ngan kawan2 sume. Tapi berbeza ngan aku. ZAMAN SEKOLAH adalah ZAMAN TERBURUK dalam hidup aku. Kat kampong tue manelah aku ade kawan. Tapi lagi bagus pasal yang pernah aku alami. Hm never mind. Macam yang aku dah cakap aku malam tue sampai umah kul 12 lebih, aku bual2 kejap ngan mak ngan ayah n makan2 sket kat dapur. Aku tidur lebih kurang pukul 3 pagi. Patutnya aku kene bangun awal hari esoknye pasal aku kene tolong2 rewang kat umah Mak Ngah aku pasal cousin aku kawin, tapi disebabkan kepenatan yang amat sangat, aku terlajak tidur sampai pukul 4.30 petang! Wow, the longest sleep I have ever taken in my life! X pernah aku rase badan aku penat macam tue skali. So ari sabtu tue aku x ke mana2 la. Hari ahad pagi tue baru aku kuar. Pagi tue gi umah Jah aku dulu tolong2 kat sana dan gi masjid tengok anak sepupu aku nikah. Macam biase, makanan wajib yang mesti ade kat sesebuah majlis walimatul-urus adalah nasi minyak kan. Aku makan dua pinggan nasi minyak tapi pada time yang berlainan lah. Pastu aku melayan lah kerenah si Hazim yang x habes2 mintak aku bawakkan die gi kedai sebab nak beli ais-krim panjang dan jajan, dan jugak si Haikal yang x habes2 kejar aku sebab nak suruh die bawak naik motor. Gosh, penatnye! Tapi anak sedare punya pasal, x kesahlah pasal diorang manje ngan Ucu diorang nie. Pastu, gi lah turun umah Mak Ngah aku sebab Abg Din kahwin. Aku turun tue, salam2 ngan bapak n mak sedare pastu aku gi duduk umah Pakcik Aziz je ngan sepupu aku, lepak2 sana. Pastu teman diorang makan jap, baru aku balik. Nak dijadikan cerita, pada hari Sabtu tue sampailah hari selasa, aku mengalami cirit birit! Dalam satu hari tue, boleh dikatekan dalam 5 kali aku masuk tandas! Mak aku kate maybe aku kene food poisoning kat umah Jah aku. Yelah tue kot! Mase tue, dengan kemalasan nak wat keje umah dan kesakitan tekak serta gangguan batuk, aku rase sangat tension. Hari Isnin tue akak aku suruh naik umah die. Die ajak aku gi mersing nak beli kek hari jadi aku. So mak pun ikut sekali la. Aku yang bawak motor. Petang lepas Abg Man balik keje baru gi mersing. Aku pilih kek yang simple jer hehe. Terlupe plak nak amek gambar kek tue dari handset akak aku mase tue. Mase kat mersing, aku beli termos isi makanan tue ngan alas kaki nak letak kat bilik, hahaha! Mahal jugak termos tue. Bukan ape, nak isi makanan sahur nanti senang. Sampai je tenggaroh 3, amek anak-anak jap, gi makan malam kat tenggaroh 2. Pastu aku bawak lah motor tue balik dari umah akak ke umah aku sorang2. Mak naik keta ngan akak n family die. Cuaklah jugak bawak moto tengah2 malam tue, tapi aku tawakkal jelah. Sampai umah, mak aku cakap mase dlm keta tadi, sume Nampak aku bawak motor laju, ahaha! Xdelah laju sangat pun. Pastu buatlah sambutan bday aku yang sangat2 simple. Hmmmm…

KE’FUCK’KAN BAS KONSORTIUM DAN KERUGIAN!

2009-08-27T02:30:00.000-07:00

Hari lahir adalah hari untuk kita bersuka ria kan. Kebetulan mase hari lahir aku tue tepat2 waktu kitorang cuti midsem. Aku kuar dari bilik pukul 7.45 dengan Joy pastu gi bilik samad jap. Afif classmate die pun ade join skali pasal die satu bas dengan aku lah. Kitorang naik van ke KT kul 8, tapi sampai kul 8.30 sebab minah tue gi suruh pakcik van tue amek kawan die kat umah sewa jap. Fuck off betol! Selamat sempat sampai kat terminal. Pastu afif nie gi lah jap kat kaunter sebab bas x sampai2 lagi kat platform tuk amek penumpang tau. Aku ikot sekali. Pastu dengan muka selamba badaknye, orang kat kaunter tue tukarkan tiket kami dengan tiga tiket bas yang lain kerana BAS KONSORTIUM DARI KT KE JB “ROSAK”!!! Peh, kau bayangkanlah betapa fuck nye aku rase! Dah lah tue, naik bas lompat2 lah pulak. Dari KT ke Kuantan pukul 11 pagi naik that bloody buruk bas of Eagle Ekspress. Pastu dari Kuantan ke Segamat pukul 4.30 pm naik Cepat Ekpress dan dari Segamat ke JB pukul 7.30 pm. Memang babi betol! Aku wat muke masam, baru die tepuk bahu aku mintak maaf! Joy dan Samad berlepas dengan MARA LINER balik Melaka pukul 10. Sambil tunggu bas, aku ternampak Yus so aku ikut die gi makan kat McD jap. Pastu naik lah bas tue. Hm dalam bas tue, aku tunggu mane lah family aku sorang pun xde ucapkan bday aku pun. Sampai aku mengangis dalam bas tue sebab terlalu sedih. Pastu aku tepon mak aku bgtau yang aritu bday aku, tapi mak n ayah aku mintak maaf sebab diorang terlupa. Biarlah, malas nak pk sangat. Sampai kuantan aku ngan afif gi makan jap pastu beratur sangat lame kat cimb atm kat terminal bas kuantan tue dengan rase meluat tengok perangai certain budak2 kat situ yang sangat KAMPONG! Pastu bas dari kuantan ke segamat tue plak aku dapat seat yang x boleh sandar tau. Bile sandar je, die asyik turun ke belakang kene kat orang. Peh macam nak patah pinggang aku duduk dalam tue 2 jam lebih. Mule2 aku ingat dari segamat tue nak amek bas ke Melaka gi umah syahmi, tapi sampai2 jerk kat segamat bas ke Melaka dah xde kul 7.30. so aku terpakse balik umah jer la. Peh macam bodoh jerk. Dari segamat ke JB sampai larkin kul 11 malam tepat. Lama seyh! Dengan roadblock lah kat tol yong peng, machap, ngan skudai. Singgah makan kat machap, tapi aku just beli air masak and roti kat kedai kek and bakery. Kesejukan aku dalam bas tu. Pastu sampai larkin Ili amek aku naik kereta Ajis. Kau bayangkanlah kereta Charade macam tue yang standard keta kancil je, aku kene bagi duit minyak rm30! Ili nie memang bodoh! Abis duit aku! Aku x suruh amek pun, tapi die yang beria-ia nak amek pastu duit aku jugak yang kene bayar! Bodoh punye abang! Sampai rumah kul 12.30, mintak lagi duit rm10 ngan aku. Sia-sia aku cucuk duit tadi, x merasa langsung! In a nut shell, hari birthday aku sangat fuck like hell! Bodoh!

to those yg nak sgt tau position yg wish bday aku aritu, hah nie die!

2009-08-27T02:27:00.000-07:00

1. Is - thnx is, wlupun kte da xde pape.. aku hrgai ape yg kau wat tuk aku selama nie..hoping that u would enjoy ur new life with new friends unlike me..
2. Alif - weh aku x sangka ar lak kau still save lg bday aku dlm calendar kau.. aku x kesah la kau ucap awal ke, lmbat ker,, hahaha. Semoga kau berjaye mcapai impian kau nak jadi seorang doctor. Good luck dude!
3. Syahmi - thnx syahmi for da picture n petikan gitar kau tue, kau da pndai maen gitar n guna photoshop dah eah,., bgus2 ade improvement.. lawa dowh kau edit. tharu lak aku.. neway kau mmang bagus beb, salu tahan layan kerenah aku nie., sayang kau lebeh.
4. Shashini - sha, luv u so much! well mcm dlu2 u still in da top 5 yg wish ma bday awal haha!! thnx pal! U are such a great angel to me! I owe u a lot!
5. Farrna - aiyo kakakku, taun lepas u yg 1st ucap.. ape suda jd same taun nie? hahaha. well i tink i deserve it psl bday u kt indon dlu pn i lmbt ucap.. sowi but thnx sgt2! luv u kakakku!!! Blaja pandai2 n jgan malas2 yerk, hohoh!
6. Alif Ritzli - alip! i was quite surprised 2 get ur call! hahaa! thnx buddy! akhirnye kau ingt gak bday aku kan!! Though dulu kau x ingat pun! Bagus la tue haha! Keep it up! Jangan wish taun nie jerk.
7. Samad - aku mybe x dpt msej kau, tp aku dah tgok bukti yg kau sent msg tue kat aku! haha! papepun thnx weh! nti kte mkan waffle tlinge babi tue lg same2 eah! Nanti kite sahur n buka pose bareng yerk!
8. Joy - aku tau waktu tue msti kau dah lukis kan gmbar spongebob n patrick tue kat aku kan? dat was da best gift n da most mengharukan la yg aku penah dpt! thnx dowh susah2 je lukis kat aku!! Thanks for being such a really nice friend to me.
9. Faizah - thnx faizah! haha! kau dak f2p5 yg 1st wish aku! thniah2! Haha. I was just shocked yet impressed that you guys could make it for me! Thanks a lot pal.
10. Minah - meena!! hehehe! thnx 4 da doa n care yg kau bg kat aku.. sory slme nie myusahkan kau tau! And you also don’t have to be worried about me that much! I’m okay. I’ll keep you informed for anything kay?
11 - elyla - whai kakak yg same bday ngan i, syg u gak rockerbabe! thnx tau. It was awesome to share the same birthday with friends we love. It was a total greatness!
12 - Toi - weh, ko gempak gak kan ingt bday aku! haha! insya-Allah mcm kau ckap, 1 ari nti kite akn jumpe smule! Aku akan lawat kau suatu mase nanti. I just couldn’t believe that someone that I hated before had just wished me my birthday with lots of the words of friendship and joy! Thanks buddy!
13 - Salleh Sley - akak sally! mekaseh!! nti kte mkn secret recipe same2 lg kay? Hey it was cool to have you around us here in UMT as we would be lonely no longer for times haha! Well, it was great spending time with you here! Thanks sista!
14 - Dila JB - 100, thnx weh! ingt gak kau eah? haha.. nti cuti kte lepak ar ngan dak2 kelas kite kat utm skudai tue.. If only I have that both driving license and transport, I would surely have taken you guys for a ride! Hohohoh!
15 - Fain - ade kau kesah bday aku? hahaha! aku ingt kau x kesah bday aku an, hehe.. ade gak persaan kau skunk nie ek? bgosh2! Well, I’m bloody sorry for messing you up a little time ago for my stupid unacceptance of your jokes! Hahaha! Anyhow, tq dear.
16 - Didi - si comel, thnx! hohohoh
17 - shairah aina - nie sowunk lg yg same bday ngan ak, thnx beb!
18 - Kairol - atok kerol, aku lahir kul 1.30pagi.,. kau lahir kul 10 kan? sebab tue la kau perlu bg present kat aku.. hohoho
19 - Fafa - budak palapes!! thnx! u rock gurl! nti aku belanja kau erk! hahaha
20 - Fairus - sugar bum2, thnx yerk! syg kau lebeyh! haha.. aku fham korg sibuk wat asgmewnt.. aku x kesah.
21 - Hatta - my pooky buri2 zaemon! aku x menilai korg dr segi lmbt ucap ke, awal ucp ke, yg pnting kite tetap kwan slmenye! thnx 4 ur concern about me ol da time! sok jumpe jom tgok movie kt TC..
22 - Zack - hah rasalah kau sumpitku! aku kol, kau reject.. ade projek d sebalik rejection panggilan aku haha!!!
23 - Afuza - syukran jazilan sahbatku.. ana uhibbuka fillah ya akh..
24 - Sham - alah kau bday aku baru nk msej aku, klu x, jgn hrap la nk reply.. busy abes, hehee.. neway, thnx DUDE!!
25 - Din - mekasih kembarku!
26 - Mama Ita - mama, mekasih! syuk syg mama! hehe! nti raye syuk dtg umah mama yerk!
27 - Abg Syazwan - mekasih bro! nti syuk dtg la, aritu x jd dtg psl tiket bas da abes! sowie2
28 - Zul - hah sbg denda, kau bwak aku jln2 g mid nti! aku x kira, nk jugak, nk jugak! haha! bro, mekasih dowh!
29 - Adha - ye, 14 ogos bday aku! jgn nk tye2 kay? kahkah
30 - Aiman - blurry, kau lupe eah? aku sepak laju2 kau kang haha! nti kite jmpe sblum ko fly balik kay?
31 - Zaheen - kenape?kenape? jgn tensen2.. me ade d cnie.. ape2 hal gtau aku k bro? thnx ar
32 - Syauqi - nie mamat kedah nie pun, thnx gak ar! aku wish awal, kau wish lmbat! aku bkar UMP kang br tau!
33 - Afiq - kau ingt bday aku eah? bgus la afiq haha! thnx eA? nti aku dtg melaka aku lawat kau
34 - Ahmad Syukri - syuk, thnx!!!!!!!!!!! hohoh
35 - Hamzah - adekku, syukran yerk.. jgn lupe aku bile dah kat al-azhar nti.. jglah insan yg bgune..
36 - Hazim - itik, mekasih yerk!! nti aku dtg kl aku lawat kau kte g mkn sushi kay? clubbing skali nk? haha! br terbakar beb!
37 - Balqis - beb, lmbat nyerk kau! haha! xpe2, neway thnx eah.. sowi x dpt kol ko.., aku ngah saket pinggang dlm bas wktu tue x dpt bsandar.. bas burok dowh!!
38 - Ali Musa - dak kecik, ingt yerk kau! bile nk balik tgaroh? jom mandi kat tg leman hahaha! thnx
39 - Ali Nor Rashid - kau mmg cronix! nti jgn lupe blnje aku buke pose!
40 - Ayiem - btine, kau lmbt ucap yerk! sial kau! ahaha thnx neway
41 - Dayat - woi tinju, bday aku 14 ogos, bukan 15 ogos.. aku br 19 bukan 20 tau! aku dak lompat k!!! hahaha
42 - Ayah Senin - ayah, mekasih! nti syuk dtg cane ye!

pade yg ucap melalui facebook:
1 - Azhanni - mekasih mushroom! at last aku join gak grup mushroom kau! idop mushroom! hahaha!
2 - Dayah Azman - hi syg! mekasih!

pade yg ucap melalui friendster:
1 - rey zal - thnx beb! blaja pndai2! jgn maen2 waktu PST nie.. tgok aku, kan dah kene lelong!
2 - Mior - syukran fwen!
3 - Ainul Farah - Ann, mekasih yerk! smoga kau jd engineer yg bjaye!
4 - Cokelat - tq!
5 - Odah - weh, mekasih! hdiah xde???

BIRTHDAYKU DAN KEGEMBIRAAN!

2009-08-27T02:11:00.000-07:00

geng2 basikal umt tq syahmi!!!

the most special bday gift eva - from Joy!

aku kat PERTOM

Yus

Amer

Ruzaimi

haikal

Well, minggu last sebelum balik ke rumah for mid-term break was one of the greatest weeks that I had in here. Ehem, well on 14th August was my birthday. So, aku sendiri sangat bodoh kerana memberitahu kat orang lain pasal benda tu a few days before my birthday. Antara manusia yang tahu tue adalah kanak-kanak riang – Yus, Amir, Haikal dan Ruzaimi. Aku nie kan kaki enjoy dan lepak-lepak semua kan. So, aku ajak lah budak empat orang tue gi makan-makan kat luar due to my birthday. Pada 13 Ogos petang tu, Samad ajak aku gi PC Fair kat Terengganu Trade Centre dekat2 ngan mydin. Sampai2 jerk, baru jenguk 1,2 booth, terjumpe ngan Syahmi! Yay! It was exigently exciting to be meeting a friend that really concerns about you man! Kitorang x borak lame pun kat citu pasal it was crowded of people la. Kat situ aku survey kamera tau, tapi disebabkan duit aku x cukup and I think that my money will be spent for something which is much important than that of camera, so x jadi la beli. Sangat sedih di situ! Tapi, ape yang aku sempat beli external USB Port, ink printer aku, ngan kaspersky anti-virus 2010. Kitorang balik semula ke UMT dan sampai pukul 8 tepat. Hah, balik semula citer pasal kanak-kanak riang tue, diorang asyik ingatkan aku pasal malam tue. It was damn embarrassing diorang cakap kuat2. Luckily xde ramai sangat orang yang dengar. Siot kau yus! Hahaha! Pastu malam lepas aku balik dari PC Fair tue pukul 9 kitorang keluar la gi kedai PERTOM tue sebab diorang nak sangat makan kat situ. Seriously Yus, Amir ngan Haikal melantak macam SETAN! Hahahaha! It was like unbelievable to see them makan that banyak for their perot sangat kecik!!! Peh, perot babi sial diorang nie! Hahaha! Ruzaimi x tambah, maybe die dah super kenyang lah kot. Malam tue, aku x ingat berapa banyak makanan yang dioerder oleh diorang , tapi x salah aku la maybe lebih dari 10 jenis makanan. Yang bestnye mase makan tue kan, aku dapat mesej dari ALIF wishing me my birthday. Hahah! Well, harga makanan tue sume tepat2 RM58! Pretty hell! Tapi member punye pasal x kesah lah kan? Hahaha! Due to duit yang agak kering waktu tue, aku nak gi cucuk la jap kat ATM kat guard tue. Hah, tapi sebelum tue, masa dalam perjalanan dari kedai makan nak balik ke kediaman jap, terjadi lah suatu peristiwa yang sangat mendebarkan hati ini! Berikut adalah dialog antara aku dan Yus!

Yus: weh syuk, nape budak pempuan baju kuning tue ngan kawan2 die pandang kat kau?
Me: mane dowh??
Yus: tue yang duduk kat kerusi tue la bodo!
Me: hah??? Weh yus2, tolong lindung aku dowh!
Yus: apesal? Mate chamellion kau tue Nampak antu ke?
Me: bodo, tu dak pempuan yang aku suke la!
Yus: kalau suke nape nak sorok?
Me: alahai, ade cerita di sebaliknye.

Haiyo kesian betol kat diri aku nie. Hm Yus, kau x tau citer sebenarnye. So, sambil jalan tue, aku citer kat diorang kisah cinta aku yang sangat tragic! Diorang just senyap je dan cuba buat aku chill semula sebab diorang dah tau aku dah moody and kind of sedih. Nak tau x ape yang diorang buat untuk wat aku chill? Hah, kan kami nak pergi withdraw duit kan? Kitorang buat kerja JAHAT lagi BODOH tapi sangat SYOK!!! Kami rembat basikal tua 3 bijik bawak gi cucuk duit kat atm tue! Hahaha! Lagi due bijik tu memang basikal Amir ngan Ruzaimi. Aku bawak basikal Ruzaimi yang hilang paddle sebelah tue! Hahaha! Diorang cakap, “SYUK, THIS IS YOUR BIRTHDAY PRESENT FROM US! WE MAKE YOU CHILLED OUT AND THAT’S WHAT WE COULD EVER GIVE TO YOU!” Can you guys imagine how MENGHARUKAN those words really were? Hahahaha! It was such a gay to be around those stupid and GILER2 dudes! Malam tue, dengan basikal-basikal tua yang dirembat tue, kami me’round’ hamper seluruh kawasan utama kampus tue, macam kat kawasan DSM ngan parking lot kat situ. Peh syok giler. I really enjoyed the moment. Sempatlah jugak snap a few pictures malam tue. Terasa macam kembali semula ke zaman kanak-kanak. J Pastu dalam pukul 11.55 malam tue sebelum nak parking semula basikal kat kolej kediaman, aku dapat MMS dari syahmi tau. Rupenye MMS birthday tue, die ade edit gambar kami dan ade kata2 hikmat yang die tulis pada gambar tue. Terror jugak mamat nie edit, kalah aku. Hm, pastu die ade attach kan skali lagu Happy Birthday yang die mainkan guna guitar. Sangat cool kay! Haha, thanks bro! sayang kay lebih! Hm, pas je letakkan balik basikal tue kat tempat yang sepatutnye, kami pun naik lah ke bilik haikal di mane di situ lah tempat kami berkumpul kalau nak gi mana-mana atau sekadar nak muck around. Pastu aku balik bilik jap, nak amek laptop, saje je nak bawak turun ke sana kot2 nak tengok movie ke kan. Hah, tepat pukul 12 tengah malam tue, aku dapat sms birthday dari Sha, Farrna and call dari Alif Ritzli! I was like stunned for a while, macam aku tak percaya je aritu dah masuk birthday aku yang ke 19! Hahaha! Pastu banyak la lagi dapat sms dan call dari kawan2 yang lain tue, hehehe. Pade yang ucap tue, aku nak ucapkan time kasih banyak2 sebab korang ingat birthday aku. I really love you guys! You rock dudes! Hahaha! Nanti aku ade attach kan skali name2 yang wish birthday aku tue ikut turutan plak tue, hehehe. Hah, mase kat bilik tue sibuk2 tgah bace sms n terima call, Joy ade dalam bilik. Die diam je, x wish ape2 pun. Aku macam sedih jugaklah, tapi aku faham2 lah pasal die roommate aku yang baru lagi kami kenal. So aku x berape kesah sangat. Maybe die malu gak kot. Hah, ape lagi, aku lepak lah dengan mengangkut bantal busuk dan bag laptp ke bilik haikal. Pastu aku tengok movie Great Teacher Onizuka dengan amir sampai pukul 4 pagi and then, kami semua dah ngantuk dan balik ke bilik masing-masing untuk tidur seketika sebelum menjelang pagi untuk balik ke rumah masing-masing, hahaha! Sampai je bilik, memang confirm lah Joy dah tidur. Aku set alarm pukul 6.30 tapi terbangun pukul 6.45. Just when I woke up, I was very shocked to see a piece of white paper on my table with the picture of Spongebob dan jugak Patrick on it dan terkandung lah beberapa kata2 dari Joy! Peh die lukis untuk aku sial!!! For me, itulah hadiah yang paling special yang aku pernah dapat seumur hidup aku! Joy, I really love you mate! Aku sempat lagi nangis pagi tue kejap sebab aku terlalu gembira, terharu dan sedih bile kau tengok gambar yang die lukis tue. Bile die bangun dan lepas die mandi, aku dengan nada yang sebak cakap kat die, “Friend, may I hug you for this picture and our friendship?”. Die jawab, “erk, no way.” Hahaha! He’s way too innocent. Maybe die malu kot. X biase kot. Bro, xde brotherhood lah kau, hehhe. Aku sangat hapy pagi tue. Plus2 nak balik umah dah kan. Yahoo!!!

KEGILA-GILA REMAJAAN FIZIK!

2009-08-27T01:59:00.000-07:00

kami x hot tp kami cool kekanak-kanakkan
jimie, me n k-ray

kat istana maziah

aku yg macho haha!

Hah, ari senin tue, kelas aku start pukul 8 smpai 10 jer tau.

Aku ajak jimi naek van tp die dah tinggalkan aku.

Korg bleh byangkan x betapa marahnye aku kat die?

Haha! So aku jalan kaki sorang2 kat jalan biawak tue dengan Aini, Anor dan Ayuni yg aku jumpe d pertengahan jalan.

Sambil2 borak tengah jalan tue, lalukah empat ekor si luncai (yus, amir, ruz n haikal) dengan basikal dorg tue. Peh, selamat x kene langgar ngan dorg, cibai tol haha!

Sampai jerk kat MST, aku amek seat, n then jimi tegur n aku mcm malas nak layan, hehe.

Pastu kelas tue abes kul 9.30 gitulah. Aku jalan balik ngan Rashid, K-Ray n Jimie la.

Ktorg balik naek van, pastu gi makan sarapan kat luar tau.

Aku ingat pas makan, nak g cc jap as kelas pun da abes, tup2 tengah mkan kat MZA tue bekalan karan tue putus. Cc sume blackout la.

Peh pedihnya hati. Tibe2 aku dpt idea bagosh nie.

Aku tanye la sape ade lessen keta. Jimie cakap die ade.

So aku ajak dorg kuar la, tp sewa keta aku yg bayar, dorg ok jerk.

Kami sewa la keta kancil kat shamisha bus kt kafe kusza tue.

First kami gi dataran syahbandar yg kat tepi pantai tue.

Saje je, pastu Rashid yg menjadi tourist guide tue bawak kami gi astaka.

Okaylah not bad jugak astaka nie.

Pas gi astaka, jimi ajak g pasar payang pasal die nk cri sumtin nk bwak balik tuk mak die. Aku orait jerk.

Tp kami sempat lg amek gambar haha!

Kat pasar payAng tue, mak tepon, suh cari baju batik. Aku carilah, harga RM15 pastu aku round bberapa kedai carikan tudung tuk mak. Dapatlah sehelai harga rm

30. Hehehe! Batu hidup seyh, korg ingt senang ker?

Pastu, aku ajak mamat2 nie sume gi cari cimb bank cucuk duit dlu, pastu cari kedai secret recipe.

Jumpe jugak akhirnye hhueeehe! Credit to sally!! Aku amek 4 slices jerk.

American brownies, black forest, choc mud n capucino.

Sume harge rm24 sumting la. Nk bwak balik bilik makan ngan hatta, joy, zack n sally skali.

Balik tue Rashid tunjukkan jalan sekitar pantai batu buruk.

Pergh lawa gler seyh pantai die. N kami pun pulang dengan hati yg senang!

Thnx dudes, I did enjoy da day!! Hahahaha!

Sewa keta 3jam cume rm15 jerk, so aku yg bayar!

HIDUP KU PENUH DUGAAN DAN KESAKITAN!

2009-08-27T01:36:00.000-07:00

kami di McD

samad bin karim

sparkling PRINZ
HAFIQ ZAKWAN

MOHD AZIZUL BIN HAMID

ME ME ME, SYUQET

WE'RE KAWAN

Wow, dah sangat lame aku x mengudarakan the latest news about me 3 to 4 weeks ago! What a very long2 time ago! Hm, dlm 2 minggu lepas, aku anta laptop aku g kedai computer kat mydin (RAM ERA) suh dorg upgrade RAM aku dan format laptop nie. Aku tinggalkn kat cane slme 1 malam sebab dorg kat kedai tue got so many other laptops yg perlu direpair. X kesah lah. Aritu aku kuar ngan samad, joy and zack. Lupe nak cter. First skali ktorg g terminal bas kt KT tue nk beli tiket utk balik raye la tp unfortunately, tiket raye belum djual lagi. So kami agak kcewa la. Pastu gi makan aiskrim jap kat McD. N I got maself 2 new POLO shirts haha! At first owng kedai tu nk bagi aku RM32 sehelai. And then aku pun tawar menawar la ngan die dpt la 2 for RM50. Lawa dowh! Hahah! Pastu kami gerak ke mydin la. Malam tue kami wat slumber party kat bilik hehe! Kitorang beli air sparkling yg botol die sebijik mcm botol arak dan wat la makan2 kat bilik tue. Esoknye aku kuar lagi ke mydin sorang2 jerk nak amek laptop kat kedai tue. Sampai cane pkul 1. Awl2 tue ok jerk pastu aku chek2 aku pye wireless still rosak n x bleyh function. And then die cube buat masih x ok2 lagi. Die pun format la laptop aku 3 kali lagi. Peh aku dah macam orang bodo jerk, last2 aku ckp x yahla wat wireless nie. Mmg dah rosak rasenye. And then malam tue hujan lebat gler babi kat mydin tue. Aku dah cuak klu2 xde van dah nak balik ke umt. Pas je ujan benti, terus aku cari lg van2 tue sume, and then tjumpe gak van tue ngan certain dak2 yg lain. U guys just imagine how long I had to stay in that bloody cold mall! Sampai je bilik, aku dah mcm menggigil. Malam tue joy bawak aku g bilik on-call. Suhu badan aku naik jadi 38.1 degree Celsius. Ikutkan aku nie kene kuarantin, senior tue dah bawak aku gi bilik kat tingkat bawah tue. Tapi balik je bilik, hatta zack n meld tang melawat aku. Samad pun same. Aku dah mcm malas dah nak turun. Bukan ape dowh, syng lak nak tinggalkan bilik tue. Joy pun x sehat, nti sape nak tengokkan die. Hm, tue lah macam2 yang terjadi. Aku x gi kelas dlm 3,4 ari lah. Sumpah x larat nak bangun. Makan pun mintak tolong joy bungkuskan jerk kat kedai. Dugaan orang yang belajar nie memang hebat! Hm, ari rabu tue aku gi la masuk kelas pagi tue. Okaylah xde sape2 tanye, bgus2! Hehehe. Pastu petang start nak demam balik. So ponteng! Ari khamis gi kelas, pn hazmin cakap sape2 yang ponteng tue, yg kene kuarantin ker, ape ker, mesti bagi MC. Sebab attendance diambil n sape yg ponteng lebeyh2 20% akan di bar drpd exam! Takot seyh! Minggu tue, aku dah sehat sket. Aku kuar lagi ngan Joy, Samad n cosmate die g beli tiket, kali nie baru dpt tiket tue, okaylah tuk balik raye kan. Pastu aku anta laptop nie gi format skali lg pasal rosak, n then selamat la mamat botak kedai tue x kenekan pape charge pasal dorg pye kesilapan kan. Hm, skang nie laptop aku bleyh gune smule! Yay!!! Ari sabtu, aku gi kelas koir mcm biase ngan zack n joy. Kelas start pkul 8.30 n abes pkul 11.30 sepatotnye. Tapi mamat cina n minah yg bajet tere tue sedap2 dorng jerk extend waktu smpai kul 12 lebeyh x silap aku. Aku dah naik angin dah. Last2, aku packing barang n cabut cmtue jerk n bungkus mkanan kat kafe bawah tue. Joy balik bilik ajak makan, tapi aku dah mkan. Cian lak die. Adoyai. He’s such a nice friend!

IBU MITHALI

2009-08-06T08:08:00.001-07:00

Hayatilah video dan lagu ini..
Hm tetibe teringat kat mak pulak..
da la semalam nangis kot rindu kat die..
kite selalu kenangkan kawan2 kite..
kite selalu kenangkan memori indah bersama kawan2 kite..
but sorry to say sgt sedikit masa kite luangkan untuk hayati setiap bait dan kenangan indah yang khas ditujukan untuk ibu tercinta..

Mak, x kira di mana jua mak berada, adik doakan supaya Allah Taala sentiasa mengampunkan dosa mak, memanjangkan umur mak dan memberikan rahmat-Nya setiap masa, sepanjang zaman..
Adik sayang mak selamanya..

Kaulah ibuku, tiada yang lain..
Kaulah ratuku, kaulah serikandiku..
Kaulah penguat semangat dan ragaku..
Tanpa mak, adik x dapat lihat dunia ini..
Mak, adik sayang mak...

Stanzas FOR THAT I LONG, F2P5T5 08/09

2009-07-30T01:58:00.000-07:00

Time does fly,
When we do not even realize that we are on the offset of our journey gaining knowledge in the very college of matriculation…
Spending a year together,
I keep with me our pictures,
That when I see them,
I won’t be that missing you…
I keep with me our laughter,
That when I think of them,
I feel lonely no longer…
I keep with me our times,
That when I try to recall them,
It won’t be that intricate…
I keep with me our videos,
That when I watch them,
I won’t cry over the longing…
But,
The most valuable thing of us
That I keep with me forever
Is our memories
That will never be expunged,
Beyond the distances that keeps separating,
Beyond the times that keeps running,
Beyond the life that keeps cycling…

Here are few words I have towards all of you…

~Ahmad Khalis, what I will remember about you is when you try hard to boost up your spirit when you feel that you are nothing… Don’t think much over it, or else you are nowhere but on what you are stepping now… You are someone who always believes in me, though I was cheating on you. Good luck, my brother… And do remember that whenever you feel lonely, Allah must be the first you should think of. No more truancy in next education institution or else, you’ll be a dead duck! Never lose hope apart from being strong because there are few people who will take you up when you go fall, instead there are big numbers of clappers will applause at you on the day you fall.

~Ahmad Nur Azizi, the leader of the year… What I will remember about you most are the shuffle dances and the grey that grow and whiten everyday… You also are someone who always complains much about the cell number I used. And you are a guy who does have struggling mood whenever abundant of obstacles are on your shoulders… Keep struggling and be a petroleum engineer as you do wish to be… And ever was I scolding you when you put a cheat on me when I was on my way to surau. Hahahaha… Keep reminding your friends of those like me!

~Ahmad Rafiuddin, always be the late comer. Though, you are plenty of jokes and too, curiosity. :p I could still remember that we were in group 2 for Chemistry Semester 1 together with Dila Ganu, Faizah and Syauqi and you would be the one to argue most! At first, I guessed that a repeater like you must be extremely bad, but instead of perpetuating being a narrow-minder, I took up myself nearly to you and I found that you are greatly funny! Do remember me, and whenever you will be after this, please do me a favor! Do not play truant any longer, instead ply what you actually learnt from experience because I have a feeling that a nondescript like you (I guessed you were) will become succeed someday!

~Ahmad Syukri, you are way a raconteur, cheering up the class with kind of weird stunts and yet very awful… What I remember about you most is your devotion to our religion. You embrace good zeal and keep it up. Never put it on a stop. Once, you never gave up advocating me to perform Solat, but I knew that you were very upset of me. Never mind, I’ll try to full them all. Don’t be lost gamer! Keep helping people with the vocabulary alright? Be an actuarist. I know you’d love mathematics a lot. And it does pay for a little junky pert weirdo such as you! I wish that you would, someday, understand that people’s feelings are different. You can’t treat a person the way you treat others. It’s very sweet of you when it comes to apology. I wish you best of luck!

~Ahmad Zakwan, a baby face guy, J. Well, you make me stunned of all your pictures, be it in myspace or in our albums. I would suggest you to be a model la bro… It’s worth it. And I wish you a healthy life. Never ride a motorcycle carelessly. Do promise me. And I am also still amazed of your creative ideas and inventions as well. They look superb. I wish your dream comes true. In the early few months, we did not talk much since you were not in mood. But someone has clarified to me that you did not mean to boycott me. It was a feeling of stupidity I had ever felt. It might sound peculiar, but I have much respect on you. Never break it up alright? I wish you would achieve your dream to be a part of multimedia sooner or later. Don’t be much bloody moody as you might kill the people around you with it! J Good luck!

~Mohamad Afiq, such a cute friend I have. What I’ll remember about you most is when I stomped you ears till it falls down to red. And I seriously owe you a very sorry. Seems like you would be rather stressed with me, J you told me about your wish of enrolling madrasah and I am much intoxicated of shock and pleasure to hear that. Go for your dreams! Next, be confident with what you decide because it determines what phase you’ll be brought next. Don’t look down on others diminutively alright? Reduce your sleeping time. Taking much sleeps can also drive you crazy! Hahahaha… Take care! Miss you buddy, so seriously! J

~Muammar Gaddafi, my best friend forever! It is still green in my mind when I found you an interesting guy and so exciting to befriend after being wrong judging you as a bad guy based on your look, hairstyle definitely! After few months, I started liking you much as you are blurred enough to be put a joke on! Next, I am to admit how great being your friend is. I did not ever expect to have been this far with you pal. You concerned me pretty well, and I owe you so much. So many things I’ll remember about you, such as the way you are, your hairstyle, your shirts, the messy mathematics notes sprawling on the table, your terminology of Negeri and everything! You care much about me and Adan. I love you fellow. Allah is the only one who can describe how I feel towards a great friend such as you. Thank you so much! Good luck! J

~Muhammad Ali, the one I first get used of the word ‘bro’ with. Hahahaha… Well, it was exciting meeting you actually. I could still remember when you and Syuk first entered the class in semester one. It is indeed green, still. Look, from a messy guy sitting silently all alone, he has now transformed into a really smart guy from the same district as me! I’ll remember you through the buses we had taken to go back to college and home. I’ll remember you through your silence when I revealed out my feelings in the bus. I’ll remember you through the way this guy talks and responds once I talk to him. Don’t be much upset with your MUET result. They were just horrible indeed, though I still got Band 4 for it. What happen before can never happen on future once you are ready for it. I wish you best of luck, my competitor! : P

~Muhammad Shahdan, the first great friend of mine in the class. I could still explain how we first met and got to know each other in our early year-time spendings. You were always with Amar, studying with your TiKL friends every night in the library and tutorial classes. But I really am sorry that I could have forgotten how we become close. Well, it might be just my guessing that we become good friends after we did spend every night together in our room. But still, there are crisis in our friendship, and they were because of our faults definitely. It might be because of my stubbornness, or because of the way you are- blur! Hahahaha… I tended to know that you are blurred since the night we sat in front of the library with Fairus and Faizah, discussing about our horrible argument. J I am terribly sorry, dude. I’ll always wish you the best of luck in your life. Do remember me greatly as I do remember you together with the moments we spent together in college. Love you mate, and thanks for taking good care of me!

~Muhammad Syauqi, what a mouth I was not used to bear with! Hahahaha… We usually had fights over silly and mundane things and it drowned us into silent mode, Hahahaha… You liked to argue most about religion and studying style of people around you. Yes I hereby confess that at times I wished that I would never see you again in the next time but you know, a very strong bond of birthday possession, I thought it is, restricted me from doing so. Nevertheless, I could still also explain how your reaction was when you got made of me! Hahahaha… Well enough to have library, Siddiq and Ali the witness. Hm, though I seem to be unhappy for seeing you mingle around the campus with all the ridiculous babbling about the faggots, foods etc., I am still all the way wishing you with all the grant of happiness from God to you. And I do owe you a very big sorry for all the disheartening misbehavior of me! Take care, my friend! J

~Muhammad Zaheen, here you come! J Well, I really3 know you very well my pal! I’ve been your wing-mate since we were in PDT programme and it was awesome to out a joke on you since you were out of it with the funny word and nod of a stupid! Hahahaha… You were the one who laughed very loudly each time our people made stupid joke, be it much of fun or a so-so joke actually. J I also used to scold you for old, stuffy things by without hesitation caring how you felt. Dear me, I am sentenced guilty, buddy! Well, it’s really nice knowing a friend such as you for two years (even though we did not really use up that hours jointly) and I thank you for all the concern and patience to me. It was great and enough indeed. Mate, you don’t have to hide a secret from me coz sooner or later, I’ll reveal it out, as I did when you were found in love with Fizah Hahahaha… alright that’s all for now!

~Muhd Roselyanzie Munir, you are absolutely unforgettable and inerasable from my dictionary of life! You did me a great brotherhood that I can’t buy anywhere including in my family. I can express these very two stereotypically towards you – THANKS & SORRY… It is very indigenous and honest of you to say the words of great love and friendship towards me that I can hear no more from any other friends out there. You told me I am your best friend ever, and you live it up! Thanks for all the most beautiful words I have. Thanks for being a very good listener and calmer to me. Thanks for everything!

To Kash, Kuman, Ilyas, Hamzah

2009-07-30T01:45:00.000-07:00

It has been one year extends when I first met them all. During the long semester break, the entire thing I was thinking about was my roommates. I could have even wondered how their behaviors might be like and also their acceptance on me. I could have still described the shock I had to know that I was just in a room that was before immeasurably terrible! It was that so-called bloody hell. Just after checking into the room, the dung of cats had invited us (me and my family) with it’s powerfully, smelly aroma. It was on the bed next to me. My first expectation at that time was that my roommates would definitely have loved cats so much! My family helped me up packing out all of my bucks. A few minutes later, this one tough guy entered the room with a numb look at me that I could read at his face, “I got someone new here”. Then we started to get to know one another. He introduced that he is Wan Muhammad Zharifzhafran from Kuala Lumpur – as I could estimate he was from KL due to his style. The dung was on his, and he cleaned it up. I knew it sucked his blood up. Then this one fair-skinned yet skinny guy entered the room with a smile, introducing himself Engku Aiman, also from Kuala Lumpur. Now I got two roommates from KL. As I was unloading my bucks, they had a few of chats with my family. Next, I received a homecoming of my next roommate. This guy’s named Muhammad Ilyas from Malacca. Till evening, they were all three dudes whom I would spend and share that C3.3.10 room with for the whole one year. Late at night, another of my roommates entered our room with an expression of null I might say. He is Hamzah from Malacca too. Whoa, what groups of places they were all from. The first I got along well with was Aiman as he seemed much excited to know from this senior how matrix life goes on in fact. At night, I would tell them a bedtime story (I thought it was) about all the history of my PDT life. I was not just thinking it didn’t attract them well as they were all paying full attention to what I was saying. As life cycles round and round, we flocked up together as roommates with few sweet and bitter memories. What hit me very unimaginably was that Wan went out for good to do ACCA in UiTM Shah Alam on 18th June 2008. It was the day that all ex-PDT students celebrated their first year presence in the college. I didn’t go as I was deeply feeling empty as Wan checked out that earlier. I still remembered when we made steps from HEP to the college gate and the very long good-bye I waved him with. The next emptiness was then held by Aiman. He checked out for good to Egypt to do Bachelor of Medicine in Mansoura University. It was during fasting month (Ramadhan) on 22nd September 2008. I could have just hugged him very tightly by without any tears which should have dropped very plenty. My life went on with Ilyas and Hamzah very moderately for a couple of months. Then I began to be close to them especially Ilyas because we were both who always stayed in that room for long. Hamzah seldom went back to room as he had a very chock-a-block schedule with surau activities and JPP stuffs. I can count by fingers how many times he went back to room, hahaha. It was no big at all. Everyday, I would share what had happened to me with Ilyas even if that was a big secret hidden beyond. Till the day we got separated from one another on 18th April 2009. It was the day we went to leave to college for good… To all of you Kash, Kuman, Ilyas and Hamzah, I love you so much bro! May our friendship last till the eternity... Amin!!!

WHAT'S ON MY NAME??

2009-07-28T20:44:00.000-07:00

Hm, kalau korang nak tahu, maksud name Mohamad Syukri tu adalah 'yang terpuji' dan 'kesyukuran'.. So in da mean time, u guys must be grateful for having my presence in ur life! Hahaha! Well, what is there on name if we do not perform all the items that our names stand for? By names, people recognize us. By names, people do notice us. By names, people get to know us. By names, people befriend us. By names, people love us. And by names, people will always remember us though death do us part...

MOHAMAD SYUKRI

M Mesra
O Oportunis
H Harum
A Amanah
M Menawan
A Alim
D Dinamik
S Suci
Y Yakin
U Untung
K Komited
R Ramah
I Ikhlas

I'M BACK!!!

2009-07-26T06:43:00.000-07:00

hadoyai!! manyak penat baru balik dr pulau bidong.. peh aku da terbakar abes nie.. tp malangnye xde gmbar la pulak..sbb x bwak hp, tkot2 hilang.. owh ye xpe la nti aku cube dptkan dr clasmate aku si ruzaimi gmbar2 tue sume.. nti ley la kowg tgok2 kt cni haha... survival laot di pulau bidong was one of the worst nightmare yg aku penah ade, tp best la! aku dpt group PARI! at 1st, i tot dat being a PARIrian ni sgt sux tp rupenye syok ar pasal sume geng2 dlm grup tue sekepala ngan aku haha..
ktorg btolak dr jeti merang pkul 9 rasenye la.. pastu naek ferry pegi ke pulau bidong.. smpai je cna, ktorg were divided trus ke dlm group n xtvt ptma kami adlh water confidence! peh punyela payah nk berenang gunekn BA tu dr gigi air hingga ke pantai yg lebih kurang 200meter jaraknye.. haa, tp jgn tkejut aku nie antara top3 yg smapai awal ke kapal tu haha.. dun judge me by my fatty body hahaha!!! pastu kami naek la atas kapal utk melakukan terjunan n berenang n kembali semula ke pntai.. saat itu aku da rase laen mcm.. aku nie bukan la hydrophobic tp aku acrophobic.. gayat la!! takot kpd ktinggian! haha.. tp last2 terjun jugak ke dlm air tue, n aku mengalami sakit perot yg teramat sgt dek otot perot yg mengecut krn kcuakan nk terjun td haha.. n fasi kami ckp, kami adlh grup terpantas dlm xtvt itu hahaha!! owh lupe nk bgtau.. ade 4 grup sbnarnye.. JERUNG, PARI, KETAM n UDANG..
petang plak, kami wat xtvt LDK. kami kene buat cheer song tuk grup kami.. punyela payah aku nk pk psal lagu tue, last2 ktorg amek idea dr cheer song KMM dlu ahaha!!70% kami ubah la.. magrib lak, sblum mkan malam, kami wat cheers lawan atr grup, n fasi ckap hya grup PARI kami nie saje yg bjaya menaekkan bulu roma diorang!a hahaha!! sebenarnye kami ptang tue ade sukaneka, tp sebab lg 3 kumpulan tue x bgus dorg pye cheer song, so sukaneka dbatalkn n dganti dgn LDK supaye lg 3 grup tue dpt memperbaikkn mutu persembahan dorg tue haha..
hmm, pd sebelah malam, lepas je solat magrib n isyak, ktorg bkumpul skali lgn menyanyikn lagu NEGARAKU, UMT CITA WARISAN n JALUR GEMILANG! nk tau x, kitorg sume x hafal pun lirik lagu UMT yg mcm bodoh nie tau! pastu kitorg dwajibkan hafal sebelum esok subuh! mlm itu xtvt kami diteruskn skali lg dgn LDK mempermantapkn cheer song n prancangan pasal mlm kbudayaan.. sambil ktowang tgah dok sronok2 tue wat2 hal yg gler2, tanpa disedari bendera PARI dicuri oleh FASI dek kelalaian kami meninggalkan bendera itu dgn hnya dipacak d atas tanah tnpa seorang pun menjaganya! peh ktorg dah bapak cuak sbb da terbayang2 dlm fikiran hukuman yg bakal diterima! ketua kami Joshua cuba jumpe ngan fasi tu, tp dorg ckap kitorng kene perform yg terbaek dlu tuk cheer sblum supper nti.. alah, klu kowg nk tau, sbnarnye fasi tue jeles ngan kami sbb die kumpulan ketam.. kami kumpulan PARI kan is da best, so x heran la.. hm, sebelum supper, ktorg kene jumpe Sarjan Sulaiman, kmi diberi mase 1 1/2 minit pakai kasut, pastu kotrg kene meranduk dlm air paya dengan lasut2 tue! peh, mcm SIAL!! mlm tue gak, mood aku da hilang! dlm kepala aku, survival laut nie mmg terok gler babi la! yg wat ktorg btahan sbb kem komanden yg sgt sporting n soft spoken, n slaloo tersenyum! pastu, ktowg minum mlm n dwajibkan tido awal! dlm khemah tue aDE 5owg, aku tido kt paling tepi n btambah teroknye, kt atas tanah tu sbnarnye ade tunggul kayu! mlm tue aku tdo dgn penuh kesakitan n keseksaan tnpa ketenangan!
haa, sok pagi kami dikejutkan pd pukul 4.30 pagi! aku terlupa bwak berus n ubat gigi! aku terpaksa pinjam zack punye, aarrgghh!!! sian lak kt zack, slmt die x kesah.. hihihi.. pas solat subuh, kami ade tazkirah, n pkul 6.30 kitorg bkumpul utk menyayikan lagu2 seperti yg dtugaskn mlm td..n then ktorg wat senaman pagi coz siang tue sume xtvt kami berisiko tinggi.. ape la pye Tuan Ajiq bukak lagu techno yg sumpah serabai tue! bkak la lagu lady gaga ke, baru syok sket nk dance haha! hm pas je abes senaman, kami g amek breakfast kt meal area, mkn nasi goreng n air teh.. okay la.. skali lg kami berkumpul tuk dbahagikan xtvt masing2.. pagi tue, kumpulan kami PARI dah ditetapkn untuk MEMANCING, SNORKELLING, JUNGLE TRACKING n KAYAKING.. kotrang g la amek BA tue, pkai n naek atas speed boat n dhantar atas kapal tuk belayar memncing d tgah lautan tue.. peh, x tahan tgok dak2 ramai muntah mabuk laut,termasuklah rum8 aku si ijoy haha! (sorry dude, i got ur name ere).. dak2 pmpuan x payah ckap, lg rmai! tp PARI tetap sempoi! aku x dpt sekor pun ikan! fuck dowh! sume umpan yg aku letak bg ikan tu makan free je.. siot tol..
pas je abes memancing, kami g snorkelling.. kami kene pkai mask, BA, fin, snockel sume.. haha, snorkelling adlah xtvt yg aku plg x bleh blah n sgt mlang bg aku! nk tau x, aku bley dpt saiz fin (kaki itik la) yg longgar ngan aku.. yg laen da xde.. masuk je dlm air, jgn ckapla btape takotye aku nk menyelam, takot lemas, ahah! aku cube la tuk mengibaskan fin d kaki ku itu ke tgah lautan ngan dak2 laen, tp aku byk terminum air masin, n bile aku br sampai separuh dr destinasi yg patut dituju, kaki aku tibe2 CRAMP! aku ckap ngan kowg la yg aku da cuak gler babi! aku ikotkn da nk tiup je wisel tu, tp aku tahan! last2 aku cari je tali n heret badan aku dr dlm air tue ke darat..smpai je kt gigi air, fasi tue mrah2 aku, ktuk2 ckap aku nie byak alasan cramp la, apela, itula, inilah.. sial gler! die ingt aku suke2 ke nk meng"cramp"kan kaki aku nie! so aku dok je tpi pantai tu smbil2 tgok kwan2 yg da jaoh ke tgah smbil melihat hidupan laot ciptaan Allah yg sgt indah! jeles seyh, tp pe nk wat.. da naseb badan.. lgpun aku nie susah nk tenangkan dri dlm air kot.. tp slmat pe aku dok pntai sebab aku dpt selamatkn kasut2 n selipar2 kwan2 PARI aku dr dihanyutkn air yg tgah pasang waktu tue..
pas je snorkelling, kami g jungle tracking..hah, nie mmg sumpah best! ktowg hiking bukit curam yg bersudut hmpir 90 darjah tau x! dgan tanah yg licin dek hujan yg tgah turun tue.. spnjang tracking tue, kami dtunjukkan semua tmpat peninggalan bekas pelarian vietnam sewaktu vietnam kucar kacir dulu.. peh, yg siot nye, aku bleh x sedar yg aku sowg je bley DUDUK2 n PIJAK2 kubur vietnam tue! peh agak cuak ar, tp slmt xde pape blaku.. hmm kotrg tgok pkok2, tgok kubur vietnam, memorial park dorg, gereja n tokong n pkampungan n tugu peringatan n tnda terima kasih dorg kepada SPB Yang Di-Pertuan Agong krn baginda memperkenankan mereka hidup di pulau bidong milik malaysia sewaktu dorg hidup kt pulau tu dlu.. br skang aku faham btapa sengsaranya hidup menjadi pelarian nie. agak sedeyh la bile kite tau betapa ramai mayat yg bergelimpangan sewaktu mereka dtng ke pulau bidong dlu tue..
cukup pasal jungle tracking, beralih ke xtvt last, kayaking.. hah, pyelah penat tau x, tp best gler! aku dpt 1 kayak ngan mumtazah atikah, ktorg pye assistant monitor.. die dok dpan, aku dok blakang. yg x bleh blahnye, aku boleh terktuk kepala mum dgn paddle tue sbyak 5 kali! kuat lak tue! Mum, sori mum, aku x segaja!!! sori mum!! hahaha! slmt die sporting! adelah jgak tersasar dr fasi yg guide kami tue, haha. hmpir jugak nk terjatoh ke dlm air, tp kami maintain jer! huh, pastu lak aku ngan mum dikira sbg top3 yg smpai cepat sebelum wat rafting! hahaha! terer x aku nieyh balqis??? hahaha! pastu mase rafting lak, kami dimarah ngan timbalan kem komanden n disifatkn sbg group yg terok dlm rafting! alah, saje je tue.. mikeson lak kene mrah abes2 tgh laut tue pasal die mcm dilabelkn sbg pengayak plg lemah.. hm cian mike! so, kami didenda angkat kayak tue ke gigi air, n angkat serta susun sebanyak 20 buah kayak atas rak n mest disusun dgan baek! peh, bpak penat seyh! da la kene marah, tp sebenarnye Tuan Along tue ok jer.. die mtk maaf la, die juz nk kerjasama je atr kami nie.. die ckap kami nie kawan ngan die haha! pastu br aku tau, rupenya kami adlah kumpulan last bg berkayak, so mmg patot la tolong angkat kayak tue! sial dowh!!! shaket tagn n kaki nie tau x!
abes je xtvt tue, kmi disurh lunch mgunakan BA tue, hya kumpulan PARI.. dgn muke tebal, aku pkai la smbil mkn tu, slmat la lauk ok.. lauk ayam masak sup. tuk pertama kali aku jumpe ayam kt pulau tu haha! rase mcm nk cium2 je ayam tue! hehe! pastu kami solat zuhur, mcm biase d atas pasir..kami berkumpul lg, n diberi taklimat suh wat LDK..smbung jap solat asar n minum petang, n smbung smule LDK.. nk tau x, kami hnya sempat praktis LDK ptang tue skali jer, tue pun x abes pon! peh btapa cuaknye aku tok menghadapi mlm kebudayaan mlm tue.. aku tawakal jer la buat scr spontan!
pas smyg magrib n isyak scr berjamaah, kami memulakn xtvt LDK.. yg duduk bwah khemah hya kump PARI n JERUNG mnkala KETAM n UDANG duk kt luar khemah hahaha! mlm tue, kami jugak diberi kepercayan tuk jd 1st grup tuk present! aku x sempat bg tajok bg persembhan kami tue haha! aku jd tourist dr london.. cternye mcm nie. kami sekumpulan pljar UMT cwangn London tgok iklan visit malaysia kt tv.. so kmi berminat nk lawat malaysia la.. n then kami wat la aksi2 naek kapal terbang la, kt airport la, n di ekspo tue, kami ade tourist guide yg bwak kami tgok tarian tradisional melayu, cina n sumazau.. so berlakon la jd mat saleh jakon yg ala2 rapper gtu mase join dancing tue hahaa! yg aku tau, dak2 sume tergelak kt aku sbb gaya aku tue, n skang nie, aku da dilabel sbg SYUQ KINGSTON! sial dowh hahaha!!! pastu smbung la ngan kumpulan len yg diselang-selikan dgn persembhan para fasi.. ktowg abes kul 1 pagi tue sbb pas je abes persembahan, kem komanden suh dak2 nie bg komen, pujian, teguran n kritikan la terhadap prog survival laot nie! peh, kepala aku mase tue dah loklak dah! da pening2 sbb x mandi pye pasal la..pastu ade buat BBQ ikan yg ditangkap siang td. aku x join pasal aku nagntuk , penat n aku tau aku x layak mkan ikan BBQ tue pasal aku x dpt tangkapan pun ahah. lgpun bukan aku kesah sgt pun ngan bbq ikan. laen la ayam kan??? haha! ape yg aku wat, aku 1st join clasmate aku dok baring kt pantai jap, pastu g kt Ijot n Zack, amek kaen pelikat, bentang atas pasir n baring! siot pye kelawar saje je jatohkan buah ketapang tue, sket lg nk kene muke aku. pastu kmi beralih tempat. baring2 lg hinggalah boleh terlelap kejap haha!!!slmt ijoy kejot.. n then aku masuk la dlm khemah..
bsok subuh, kem komanden kejot pukul 5.30 gtu kot. basuh2 muke, gosok gigi n berak jap haha!!! shhh! diam tau! pas solat subuh, ktorg ade tazkirah n bkongsi pglman ngan sarjan sulaiman n kem komanden tuan joe tu.. okla, tp aku da kene attack byak kali sbb aku duk dpan die. so adelah dicop sbg pencabul la..yg x bleh blah, sarjan tye aku mrokok x, aku jwab x, pastu sume cosmate aku ckap, SYUK POWER! DIE X HISAP RKOK, TP DIE MKAN ROKOK!! yus la yg ckap tue! sengal gler ko yus!! hahaha! pas tazkirah, kami mcm biase nyanyi 3 buah lagu tue, pastu 6.30 smpai 7 wat senaman pagi.. pastu ktorg ade kene runtuhkan khemah, gotong royong n breakfast skaligus lunch. it was like x adil tau pasal grup PARI kene gotong royong yg plg berat. kotg kene kemas n bersihkan kawasan selepas meal area tue ke bangunan urusetia, n angkat BA rmai2.. aku amek part menyapu smpah kt seluruh kwasan tempat tdo fasi tue.. peh bpak pengotor dorg! puntung rokok, kotak rokok, sisa mknan! aku nie la yg jd tukang sapu, mybe aku da mmg biase membersihkan rumah kot smpai la mosaic tu bersih n xde pasir.. fasi2 tue sume puji aku syial, dorg panggil aku suami mithali! hahaha!!! bagos3! dorg ckap la aku sapu lg bersih dr dak pempuan haha!tgok la anak sape kan! haha! aku bangga la ngan grup PARI aku sbb teamwork kmi sgt hebat! pas mkan tue, kmi ade pertandingan kayak. 2 laki, 2 pmpuan dr stiap kumpulan.. peh smpi nk pecah anak tekak aku menjerit tok kumpulan pari.. sbnarny ktorg bleh je jd johan, tp sbb 2 org yg last tu mcm kurg fham dgn arahan fasi supaye patah balik ke laut n buat u turn kt bendera ganu, so kami hya dpt no 2 aje.. ape pun, aku sgt berpuas hati n we do enjoy! at least dorg da wat yg terbaek! haha!
xtvt last, perasmian penutup n penyampaian hadiah.. ade 5 benda dipertandingkan! nie kategori n pemenangnye:
1. Teamwork terbaik - KETAM
2. Juara Pertandingan Memancing - KETAM
3. Juara Kayak - UDANG
4. Cheers Terbaik - PARI
5. Persembahan Kebudayaan Terbaik - PARI

woo kmi dpt 2 hmper!hahaha! n kamu jugak mmg sepatutnya dinobatkan sbg kumpulan terbaek sbenarnye! jerung x dpt pape haha! kcian deh loh.. papapun, kte just nk enjoy, tol x beb?
pas tue, ktorg berpeluk n bersalam ngan sume fasi2.. kotrg adelah wat gathering tiap group.. sempat lg amek gmbar ngan tn joe n tn along.. n smpat jugak dak2 ni cmpak abg din fasi kmi tu ngan tn along yg garang tu ke laot hahaha!
n then , kami pun balek ke tanah besar n now, here I am!!!
rndu lak ngan dak2 PARI nie...
tp papepun, geng2 MATRIX is still n will always be da best!!!! Luv u ol guys!!! LOL!!

WOULD LIKE TO KNOW WHAT ARE THE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN MY LIFE???

2009-07-21T21:24:00.000-07:00

14 Ogos 1990 - Aku dilahirkan ke dunia ini..
26 Julai 1951 - Birthday mak aku..
30 Jun 1942 - Birthday ayah aku..
26 April - Birthday abang aku yg sulung, ahmad bin sani
24 Ogos - Birthday akak aku, salmiah binti sani
16 Oktober - Birthday abang aku jugak, suhaimi bin sani..
17 September - birthday abang aku, irwan bin sani
6 Mei - Birthday abang aku, mohamad suhaili..
25 Mei 2001 - abang aku, sabaruddin bin sani telah menghadap Ilahi..
28 April 2009 - abang aku, shahizal bin sani telah menghadap Ilahi..
(Al-fatihah untuk mereka)..

Birthday anak2 sedare aku:
1.Mohd Syafiq Asyraf Bin Azman - 13 Disember 1992
2.Nur Aina Najihah Bt Suhaimi - 28 Mac 1995
3.Saiful Akmal Bin Suhaimi - 8 Januari 1997
4.Nur Safwah Aina Binti Azman - 15 Julai 1998
5.Mohd Aiman Bin Ahmad - 24 September 2000
6.Muhammad Fitri Bin Azman - 26 Disember 2000
7.Norasyikin Binti Ahmad - 12 September 2002
8.Noraini Binti Ahmad - 28 April 2004
9.Muhammad Syamil Hazim Bin Azman - 25 Mei 2006
10.Shafiz Haikal Bin Suhaimi - 2 November 2006
11.Mohd Amirul Amin Bin Irwan - 24 April 2007
(semoga anak2 ini menjadi insan yg berguna di suatu hari nanti)..

These are the birthdays of my beloved pals:
1. Farrna - 10 Oktober 1989
2. Hatta - 27 Oktober 1989
3. Kash - 3 Jun 1990
4. Aiman - 13 Jun 1990
5. Ilyas - 21 November 1990
6. Hamzah - 1 Disember 1990
7. Sham - 23 Januari 1990
8. Zul - 11 Jun 1990
9. Toi - 24 November 1990
10. Balqis - 1 Ogos 1990
11. Faley - 12 Oktober 1990
12. Mira - 12 Oktober 1990
13. Hazim - 12 Disember 1990
14. Alif Ritzli - 18 Julai 1990
15. Jay - 22 Mac 1990
16. Afuza - 1 Januari 1990
17. Syami - 21 Februari 1990
18. Shashini - 31 Mei 1989
19. Syafiq - 7 Jun 1990
20. Joy - 7 Jun 1990
21. Adha - 6 Julai 1989

These are the dates of my life that I would always remember:
10 Mei - Hari Ibu
11 Jun - Hari Bapa
18 Jun 2007 - Aku mendaftar di KMM
15 Mei 2008 - Aku jumpe roommates aku, Kash, Kuman, Ilyas, Hamzah
18 Jun 2008 - Kash keluar pegi UiTM
22 September 2008 - Aiman kuar gi mesir
18 April 2009 - Aku abes matrix, berpisah dengan semua..
22 Julai - Kash fly ke UK for few years..

Ya Allah, berikanlah aku kekuatan dalam menghadapi semua cabaran dan liku hidup ini, Amin Ya Rabbal A'lamin..

I SWEAR IT'S TERRIBLE INDEED!!!

2009-07-20T07:14:00.000-07:00

here in umt kan, salu sgt xde air smpai kite nk berak pun rase ragu2 n was2 sbb takot2 running out of water mase kite tgh melabur tue..
adoyai apela naseb aku dpt kt tmpat yg salu jerk xde air..
mmg jembal yg btol2 jembal la kt cni..
itz terrible indeed..
nk mandi pun kene beratur kt bilik 501 sbb kt ctu je yg x putus bekalan air..
itz fuckin shit lar!!!

A TREMENDOUS REGRET

2009-07-18T22:29:00.000-07:00

What is your first impression on friendship? Friendship is an indeclinable peripheral piece of life. It can be so sweet since the trustworthiness and loyalty are there. But at certain times, it can turn out to be bitter when it is full of pretending done by the betrayers! This is not a fairy-tale; this is a true story of a camaraderie that can never be forgotten for a lifetime- I felt betrayed and had enough of the word “promises” in my friendship with the two betrayers.

It is still green in my mind that I was alone, doing my works on English while my guy classmates were having conversation on Firdaos and the girls were bad-mouthing me for I had no one to talk to. Well, it was no big since I used to be anywhere, anytime on my own, talking to nobody, just reading my green Reader’s Digest: Always by Your Side. I was engrossed to the guy’s topic- Firdaos had a great crush on a Form 2 girl, Shifa. I thought he was way building a castle in the air. All of sudden,
“Syukri, you’re friend of Shifa, aren’t you?” Firdaos asked.
“Yes, I’m. Why?”
Firdaos told me the whole thing from A to Z of his yearning to possess Shifa’s love. He was not day-dreaming; he was totally having a terrific crush on her! He asked me to pledge him that I would try to persuade Shifa to be in love with him. I could not almost believe that how his plea could ever endure this heart, leaving both sympathy and empathy on him. Considering that he would one day be my best pal, I then tried as he pleaded me to.

“Syukri, don’t you get me? I don’t even know who Firdaos is and I really don’t want to know who he is. You’re totally to bring him interfere my already wobbly life!” Shifa scolded me.

“Shifa, how can get me if you refuse to listen to my clarification first? I’m just doing what I’ve promised him. He pleaded me and I had no words at that juncture. But trust me Shifa. Firdaos is such a great friend I’ve ever had. He’s wonderful that I’m sure he would bring happiness into your life.”

“Syukri, you’re thinking that this would be easy, aren’t you? Come on buddy! You’re the one who has told me that love is a pure subject in life. It is a feeling that comes from inside; it’s not made of others.”!
Hey, I just wanted her to know that love will never come over us if we never search it! But auspiciously, she at last agreed to be in love with Firdaos, just for the sake of our friendship!

Well, Shifa had taken more or less a month for herself to fully-accept Firdaos’s presence into her life. And for all the while, I had also spent my time, money and energy just for tightening their relationship, to ensure that things would keep going smoothly as we were all hoping it to be. While Firdaos thanked me a lot and spoke so much great love and friendship he had to me, and Shifa was yearning for my advices to keep her strong all the time, I myself had to struggle to make all the sacrifices that I had chosen valuable! And I entirely did not even care at all about my time, energy and money because I considered them as my true friends for my lifetime and I also thought they did. I could still remember how Firdaos was hugging me, and Shifa was staring smoothly at me, and they spoke their promises that they would never ever leave me. They told me that they owed me a lot.

I am only a son of a fisherman. Yet I am also the Josephine of my family, their last hope. They do not want me to go sea as my father and brothers do. Well, you people exactly know how really dangerous the ocean is. But I was at the time very stubborn. I went sea with them during holiday just all to gain money to recharge my prepaid credit. I stood myself with the ultraviolet of the sun. And what did it mean? I was bathing in my sweat! What for? Just to help tightening the both betrayers’ very “fascinating” relationship.
At school, I did not even have my breakfast and lunch. I saved all my money also to recharge my prepaid credit to constrict their relationship!

How really blind this eyes were, could not see how I myself had been made a fool of them! But God is totally fair and I believed He showed me the truth of all – it was when I made a bounce to Shifa’s classroom during the rest, wishing that I could do her any favour on homework and studies. It is still green in my mind how her friends treated me badly that had made me realized how really meaningless I was!

“Syukri, I need to talk something important with you. We all have known that you kindly became an instant angel by helping them to be in love right? And we all also know that there is an intention beyond all your favours. Only God knows that but as human, we can all guess and sometimes the feeling we have is all true. But Syukri, I just want to warn you. Don’t you ever dare both to approach Shifa and meet her up anymore or else we would be going to give you repugnance! Shifa only wants to have a date with Firdaos, not anyone included you!” said the girl offensively.

My weakness was that I could not offend myself in whatever people talked about me! At that while, I really had no words to say. I thought myself to be a fool who could simultaneously believe what others said to me!

One day, neglecting what all her friends said, I went to see Shifa and asked her on how far the truth was. Hoping that she would not back them up, things have turned into something that I never expected it to be – she accused me that I had fallen in love with her and trying to stick her with Firdaos was only my trick so that she would by then expect me to be with her in any time when she got into hot water around! It’s only God who knew how hurtful her saying was.

Sadly, I next went to see Firdaos, trying to tell him all the true pictures in which I hoped that he would explain to Shifa what my real intention was. But again, I had been embarrassed when he too put the same statement on me as Shifa did, in front some of his best buddies! How could I elucidate them my sincerity? I had nobody who walked with me. I was alone. I had no strength to defend myself; instead I would totally be overwhelmed of those powerful culprits! I was later investigating who was behind all of the mess, and it was my very enemy, Nina! She had been the one, burning all the abhorrence on Shifa and Firdaos’s eyes onto me! How she did that, again only God knew it.

It was the moment when I had a tremendous regret – that I did not explore how those people behaviours were, that I hastily made decision by without making up my mind wisely, that I was totally wrong judging them and expecting them to be angels of my life at all! It was the tremendous regret!

Feeling sick of them, I then began to set in my mind that I would never ever care about them anymore, instead I would go further, making some steps ahead of them, determining to dazzle them with my brilliance, having a goal to let people know how bad they really are and making them pay for what they have done to this Mohamad Syukri!

Now, I’m studying in Malacca Matriculation College, Malaysia. Right here, I have lots of best friends here who understand me well because I have told them this story. And my purpose on writing this anecdote is not to beg sympathy at all, instead I want people to learn how to appreciate their friends who have ever given their full devotion, how to remember friends who have ever sacrificed innumerable things just for the sake of friendship, how to always think of them who have ever walked with them through thick and thin. They are true blue friends! But those who do not know how to even thank their friends, it is not because they do not remember, but they are totally true betrayers who are way going to betray you by pretending how they love you much. Do believe me! Go with your friends who you truthfully trust them, who you are sure that you will be happy to be with them, who you pretty confirm that they will never give you repugnance even once in a lifetime!

I have had some breaks during studying here, and when I returned to my homeland, I had sometimes seen Firdaos struggling to make money that he planned to marry Shifa I thought he was, and the most shocking is that he did caution me when we passed by beside one another! Well, I did not turn back to even take a glance and put my pity on him, but I was proud of myself that I could now make my life better that before for the cause of the betrayed camaraderie done by them! And I also heard that Nina had also been cheated of Shifa and Firdaos and she did want to come apologizing me! Well Nina, that’s how the life works!

Sometimes life gives puzzle to us for us to solve. It’s to tell us how we can actually make lots of changes on some things that we never expect them to be. It tells us how to let things go off wisely. To have a satisfying result, we need to make the choice or choice makes us! In my case, I do think that I have made a right choice that assures me a beautiful ending because I take things into learning via the tremendous regret I had! And I will never take my revenge onto Shifa and Firdaos off! Yay for myself!

BILL GATES

2009-07-18T07:55:00.001-07:00

BILL GATES

The moment you are in tension
You will lose your attention
They you are in total confusion
And you’ll feel irritation
Then you’ll spoil personal relation
Ultimately, you won’t get cooperation
Then you’ll make things complication
The your BP may also rise caution
And you may have to take medication
Instead, understand the situation
And try to think about the solution
Many problems will be solved by discussion
This will work out better in your profession
Don’t think it’s my free suggestion
It is only for your prevention
If you understand my intention
You’ll never come again to tension!!!

FAMILY VALUES...

2009-07-18T07:52:00.001-07:00

You do not choose your family. They are God’s gifts to you, as you are to them”. This is a quote said by Desmond Tutu. We used to speak on the word “family”. But do we really recognize what does the word mean? In general, family can be defined as a set of parents and children or relatives. In other meaning, family is a group of members that have blood relationship; grandparents, parents, sons, daughters, brothers, sisters, uncles, aunties and cousins. Family can be classified into two categories; nuclear and extended family. No matter what type of family is, there must be innumerable values that have to be instilled in the family members. The family values that are commonly practised are responsibility, honesty, respect, education, loyalty and tolerance.

The first family value that is habitually practised nowadays is responsibility. This family value must come in first. This is because responsibility is the root of other values. If the family members are not cultivated with the value of responsibility, they will not be a very well-organized family. As parents, they should perform their responsibility to feed and nurture their children, to be always by their side when they are in need in particular, to provide them with better education and manner and to give them much affection. However, in this day and age, parents have forgotten to encourage the values in their family, and surely it has donated to the increasing of juvenile cases among youngsters today. Most of youngsters with problem come from working family; their parents. They are abuzz of their daily routine of working and meeting clients till they forget that they still have offspring who are to be looked after with much more attention. Children are now in their adolescence time; they actually need to speak on what they feel towards their parents. In this case, each other’s responsibility has the lead role in the play. It is not only for the goodness of one side, otherwise, it is for goodness for both side. Moving to the lack of parenting skill, it is true that sometimes our children will repay for what we have done to them. If parents are responsible onto their children, it is guaranteed that they would do us the same way. The inversed thing will happen if the parents are not responsible about them. No wonder that most of the children who are ignored of their parents when they are at the tender age will send their parents to the old folk’s house. For sure, this is a case of “a chip off the old blocks”. Responsibility is that vital since older family members are to decorate the lives of children with the colour of gazillion positive values. They will be role-model of the younger. This value must not only be practised by parents towards their children, but also by sibling and grandparents, just to name a few.

The next family value that comes after responsibility is honesty. Beforehand, we would define honesty as truthfulness with other individuals, with institutions, with society, with self and the most important to the family. In a lovely family, the honesty is strength to tighten a relationship and the parents must be a role-model to their children to be honest. Teaching children honesty can be a real challenge in giving the example to the young because what they will be influence by us. The parents must be completely honest with their children. This will show them how always applicable the principle is. Therefore, when small children lie, try to give them as little attention as possible and praise them extravagantly when they tell the truth. Sometimes, the children feel afraid to tell the truth about what they have done since they do not want their parents to get mad at them. Children who lie to their parents do so because they do not want to be found out about some questionable activity that they have been engaging in. Perhaps they have lied about where they were spending the night because they knew their parents would not approve their friend or what they were up to. No parents want to find out that their children were smoking around a friend’s house instead of staying over and doing their homework together. But if children are taught to practise honest early on, they would be more likely to feel a sense of shame about their intentions, rather than do something bad and cover it up. Children who lie to their parents will not be treated in the same way as those who are honest about what they do. Parents will not be keen to extend the same privileges to them in and outside the home. As a result, they will not be trusted. Even called “little white lien” can damage a relationship irreparably. People know that if someone lies to them, they do not look at that person in the same way and they lose respect and trust for them. It is same in our family. A lot of harrow can be avoided if our family members learn to be honest. It will gain more respect in family and most important, telling the truth at all time takes effort. If we make a mistake rather than try to cover it up, just own up to it and deal with all the consequences.

The third family value that is commonly practised is respect. Respect is also very momentous in a family. Respect will exhibit how really good and beautiful a family is. Respect is involving everyone in a family; respect from children towards parents, grandparents, siblings, aunties, uncles and cousins. Normally respect is practised from the younger towards elder. However, an only one-side respect is inadequate to shape a harmony family; instead all sides must show their respect towards each other. Why is respect very vital in a family? Did you ever hear the word “filial piety”? Filial piety is the respect towards parents. It is an obligation that every child must respect their parents since they have fed them, they have provided them education to be a better human being, they have grown them up and so forth. In short, all their contributions are countless. Parents must be put at the next place after The First; God in every child’s heart. What if respect is not being practised? If we go through a magazine named MASTIKA on February 2008 Edition, it is mostly about the rudeness of children towards their parents. That is the case of unpractical of respect. MASTIKA has stated the case of two, three children have mistreated their mother that bad; they kicked, punched their mother for the mother did not fulfil what the children wanted. The respect is not even there, but the evil and cruelty are. MASTIKA has also reported that all the “useless” sons have been sent to Rehabilitation Centre for reshaping the respect and morality they have lost. Filial piety must come firstly because if filial piety is not being trained, then the children will not also know how to respect and evaluate others. If parents and elderly develop the value of respect in their family, there is no denying that some social problems and moral decadence can be curbed. We used to hear that first education begins at home. And parents are the most accountable people to be instilling the value of respect by showing their respect towards their parents too. As we have said just now, when parents teach their offspring of to respect them and family members, at the same time the offspring will also respect their friends and public surrounding their life. Extended family members should also be involved in shouldering the duty to develop respect among their family members.

The next family value that is usually being practised in a family is education. Education is a very important part that we need to get a better life. It makes us more matured and can distinguish between good and bad. in this day and age, we can see the difference between the educated and uneducated family. The educated family simply has a better life. The knowledge makes others respect us. Although they live in poverty, they still have chance to succeed. It is because the family consider that only education can make their life better. The parents should give education since their children are toddlers. This may due to their phase. At this phase, the babies may put their ears back to their parents very well and their brains are trained to pick up and expand to progress thinking, or in other exact word, they are at high metabolism. Parents should educate them starting from to speak. Beside that, parents can give but them toys that would develop their mental and physical slowly but in smooth, for example the dolls and plasticine. Other than that, when they are around four to six years old, parents are advised to send them to pre-school or kindergarten so they can learn many basis, such as the alphabets, numbers, shapes and even the plain moral values. The parents also need to give total commitment to help their children to grow up fonder. By practising this, the children will get full attention and love from their parents and family. Family should take good care of what children do and they must know their friends, whom they are mixing with. It is significant because peers may influence our children easily, how them to be. Parents also should educate children with other moral values since they are young so that in the future, they can be independent people. After that, when children enrol the new life of secondary school in particular, family members should guard them tighter because they are going through a time of adolescence. In Malaysia, we have seen some cases of the very brilliant students are involved in many juvenile cases and societal addict such as bullies, black metal, punk, skinhead, and others. This is where religious education has to take part inside, and definitely parents and other family members should teach them the part. All religions around the globe have impressed all the embracers so that they perform their responsibility of being a very good human being. For example, the religion of Islam has asked all parents and family members to teach each other how to pray, how to recite the Al-Quran and so much more. At the same time, Christian has also pushed the elders in family to read and practise all values in their Bible. This element can prevent children from the negative issues. Next, parents can also send their children to the boarding school so that the children will be trained of being independent. There must be no worries that our children will by then do the same way we teach them out to their children.

The next family value that is usually practised nowadays is loyalty. Family loyalty refers to the feelings of mutual obligation, commitment, and closeness that exist among family members; parents and children, grandparents and grandchildren, and siblings. This devotion or allegiance to one's family has been examined primarily with reference to social support or assistance from children to parents in later life. Are we noticed what the indicator of family loyalty is? It is the filial obligation. Filial obligation is a cultural concept that refers to an adult child's sense of duty and commitment to respect and care for his or her parents in later life. It is what is called spontaneous and unconditional loyalty. We have all heard the expression, blood is thicker than water. For the most part that is true. But how does this affect our family life? On the day when our mother and father exchanged their marriage vows they made an unconditional exchange between each other that for better or poorer, in sickness and in health, in good times and in bad, they could do the best by each other and the best by us that they could. We have benefited from the loyalty that they have shown to each other over the years. None of us could have ever survived our childhood if it had not been for that loyalty that existed between our parents. It was a bond of blood that gave us the opportunity to survive infancy, childhood, adolescence and teenage life. Their love and their loyalty worked hand in hand. The loyalty and love that they exchanged between each other for better or worse benefited us. We do not deserve it because of what we have done. We do not deserve it because we are entitled to it. We were given that charity, that compassion and that love as we were growing up because of the love and loyalty of our parents to each other. We entered their love; their circle of relationship in the promise of concern for us was made by them. We hungered and we were fed. We cried and we were comforted. We were in danger and we were defended. Nobody in the family circle asked why or if they owed us a favour. In short, in what situation we are in, the loyalty of family must always be there. Later, if parents cultivate us with the value of loyalty, simultaneously it will teach us of how to be loyal or devoted in our future.
The last family value that we have found out usually being practised in a family is tolerant. Tolerance is an inner strength which enables the individual to face and transform misunderstandings and difficulties. Mr Federico Mayor, the Director-General of UNESCO has in his book of “A Year for Tolerance, 1995” stated that “Tolerance is not concession, not indifference. Tolerance is the knowledge of the other. It is mutual respect through mutual understanding.” Family is the first classroom for each family member to learn about tolerance, as there is always some adjustment to be made to accommodate others. In daily life, there must always be tests of being tolerant. Those family members who pass most often have the consciousness of appreciating the good in each other and in situations. Being tolerant also develops the ability to accommodate the problems of everyday living. Actually, the aim of being tolerant is peaceful coexistence. While tolerance recognizes individuality and diversity, it removes all the divisive masks and defuses tension created by ignorance. A tolerant family member takes into consideration the uniqueness of all people. Through understanding and open-mindedness, a tolerant family member attracts his or her family different, and by genuinely accepting and accommodating that family, demonstrates tolerance in practical form. In this case, parents have the lead role in the play to instil tolerance in their children. Nowadays, social problems among youngsters are also because of intolerance among parents. Parents should understand what phase their children are now in, they need to control and keep their eyes on the offspring and to be tolerant with them depends on situation. Other than that, tolerance must also be practised among siblings. This is quite momentous as the siblings rivalry can be way avoided. For example, arguing for belongings. The elder must be tolerant which they have to at times “surrender” to the Josephine of the family in an argument. As the tolerant ones, they have to behold on the words, “surrender does not mean being a loser”. In short, each family must themselves be tolerant for the sake of peace and harmony of their family.
In a nut shell, the role of practising all moral values in family is not only on the shoulders of family itself, but also on the shoulders of community. We have got to show them how worth a family’s life is with all the values likewise Christopher Lasch quotes, “The family is a heaven in a heartless world”.

TERPIKIR PSAL NAK KAWEN N NAME ANAK2...

2009-07-16T08:33:00.001-07:00

well, aku nie berfikiran jauh sbenarnye hahaha...
terase excited lak nk bg nme anak2 nie..
tp name anak aku nie plik2 sket ar..
mesti yg korang da salu dengar..in da mean time, sgt common!!
tp name dorg nie mmg superb ar mksudnye..
hahaha
neyh die...

Afuza Abdullah Bin Mohamad Syukri
Muammar Gaddafi Bin Mohamad Syukri
Jannatul Ridhwan Bin Mohamad Syukri
Alif Ritzli Bin Mohamad Syukri
Zulhaimi Izwan Bin Mohamad Syukri
Siti Munawwarah Binti Mohamad Syukri
Nurul Shamsinar Binti Mohamad Syukri
Syahidatul Nazirah Mohamad Syukri
Qurratun Najwa Binti Mohamad Syukri
Nur Jannah Mawaddah Binti Mohamad Syukri

Hm, for those yg name u guys same mcm my future kids name, i owe u a very sorry coz i really admire ur name, haahaha..
hopefully they wud definitely b like u guys in da fture hahaha..
thinkin of findin a wife who cn give birth of these 10 kids...Amin..

SUFFOCATED UNDER PRESSURE!!

2009-07-16T08:21:00.000-07:00

baru jap td aku kuar ngan afuza, hazwan ngan joy.. we were all paying a visit to Taman Tamadun Islam (masjid crystal) n we had few photos taken! wow! it was awesome actually.. then we went to kg losong gettin sum keropok n sate.. funtastic gler kot dpt mkan2 the pure keropok ganu haha! ten afuZa took us to his house kt kg manir.. then he also showed me the videos of new batch kt kmm.. n da tragedy yg x d'ingini blaku.. i had a few kesalahfahaman wif some of my frenz.. aku rase mcm truk gler.. i was almost down, but luckily i cud still control da emotions.. haiz la people... pening gler, distressed.. but at least arini aku da cube tuk blajar mcntai trengganu n umt nie hahaha...here was ok actualy..werever i am tcampak at, i must try 2 sustain!! yes syuk u can do it! definitely!!! tp SERONOK KOT gi masjid kristal tadi..syok gler!! hahaha.. here r few pix yg aku smpat snap.. for those yg x penah g, i would strongly suggest kt u guys 2 pegi sana.. jgn jeles hahaha...

A Memoir Of A KMM Gazer

2009-07-12T23:01:00.001-07:00

As whirlwind kicks off its gear, I do not even notice that I have been in this college for almost two years. And of course, as everyone does reach the end of this semester, they get intoxicated of distressing studying environment. Nevertheless, I could have been wondered of a nonchalantly-looked thing that students here in this college give ignorance – the pictures of every single street, corridor or in the exact word, each part of the college!
I knew that all lecturers have always reminded their students about the books, exams, time management and definitely future, but what is running through my mind is that why students have great repugnance at this college! This case is direly not to be happening, but that is what has been kicking the minds of them with. Frankly, I would like to tell every people, if possible, that I actually am so in love with this lame-look but maturing college of matriculation. Pitifully, this however is not taken into consideration by college’s students.
The most questionable question is how this neglect can bizarrely colonize the minds of future engineers, doctors, lecturers, lawyers and the future citizens of the country and nation? What a shock for us to know that the sense of love is not being instilled in their heart towards this college. Here, few students were lamenting and moaning like pigs (bloody sorry to mention this) for having this college theirs. However, there are still small numbers of students who would be missing this college much as I have already known. I included. As for me, I had those who hated attending this college reasons – they had originally gotten into hot water. That’s all that I can say.
Buddies, as we are walking on the cycle of life, we are actually on our journey of becoming matured and grown up. As obstacles and distracters are waiting abundantly at front, a great guts, patience and perseverance would help you tackle the exigent petrifies. The guts gives in you courage to dare being in dangerous and drowning possibilities. Patience gives in you strength whilst you are trying to perpetuate, and perseverance helps gives in you restless tremendous determination or persistence of attaining success.
Getting back into our topic discussing about people’s stances in here, it was rather than pathetic to see some socially-ills mucking around everywhere, doing ‘wrong-side’ businesses. Just now, I got see the video about that nuts, idiotic old man, the fake RASUL of Islam. Being frank, he was entirely lunatic to admit and declare himself as a messenger of Allah. More infuriatingly, I saw all the fanatic followers of him, by without any hesitation, defended for him! It was way too revolting. I was just wondering, did they not have mind? Very sad to say, but our people nowadays have been too orthodox. Be it old folks or highly-posted employees, they just had, in my own sentences, no devotion or in exact word, FAITH! I could see how intricate the struggles of the responsible shoulders of religious parties to vanish off all the craps. And I now knew how upset some of the NTPs really were when our students, after being advised tolerantly, kept being big-headed. Pathetic! I could just pray that somehow, someday, this type of people would change, though I myself am not on the right way as how Islam does want it to be.
It seems like this is enough for this juncture. Hopefully, all of the students of MALACCA MATRICULATION COLLEGE would do well hence achieve flying colors result in PSPM2. And I will definitely pray so that every one of us from this ‘Kolej Melepak Malaysia’ (KMM) would make every single dream of us coming true, Insya-Allah. Till meet you again. Farewell.

A FEW WORDS TOWARDS THE LAST DAY OF P&P

2009-07-12T22:59:00.000-07:00

That Thursday evening, I received a text message from my classmate, Fairus asking all of us to get into either purple or pink outfit the next day (Friday). The colors of feminine (pink) and gay (purple) were our theme for the end. I went to my friend’s room and borrowed from him purple shirt. Well, it was bad at all to disappoint people who take care of us a lot.
Without further ado, let me share with you something that I did not expect it to be much like. Beforehand, I attended the last practical class of Physics with Mr Zahidi at the science laboratories complex. I was one of the late comers, and by without having the lecturer a few words of greeting and apology, I went in and took my sit next to Danielle. It was quite shocking for me to find that there were still some of us played truant. I thought them all to attend since we were going to have pictures taken lots more I guessed. Doing not much mind about that, after ending up discussion on Chapter 14 and 15, we again had the photography session with Mr Zahidi. It was embarrassing to get the camera off all the times I tried to capture. Pathetically, I switched and took it off downstairs for the next venue – Speaking Corner. This is actually the topic I want to share with you for this current day and age. From the fourth level of the complex, I just wondered that students were sprawling everywhere round to make the memories everlasting – taking photos. Seeing them all made me felt so sad yet bad. Deep down in my heart, I was blushed to death to see every part set by students for photography. If I were to say, I would remain just silent and say nothing. As I’m astounded, I would whisper in my heart that this is such a magical memory of a lifetime that students will keep in mind safely. Paying much attention on others discovered me that I still did not ‘pose’ much with my classmates. Again, the camera turned things chaotically done. Then, we set off to the lecture hall. On my way, I got Zul, Ejat and Paan with me for photos again, Hahahaha… My, I still hadn’t had few of my lecture-mate photos! We were in DK actually to play and fool around I thought. I met some buddies there and photography kept on rolling. Then, we went to English class and yet, had some photos taken with our beloved Madam Norridah. I went on a chat with her for the last time, perhaps and I found her attaining up so much blissful success in her life. Such an aspiring old lady she really is. I was ecstatic conversing much with her about all the things we were discussing, and we dismissed at 12.24pm. I was speechless too. I should have said lots of word of apology, thanks and all the prosperity I wish her does. But then, things could not be done as sun rays ultraviolet too excessively causing it blank and blur. I am of sorrow. F2 P5 T5, I miss you all guys! Madam too. Oh by the way, I could have gotten my pictures taken with Fali, Farrna and Azfar Hahahaha… Let bygones be bygones. To err is human, to forgive is divine. Missing you guys with lots of love and friendship I really am. Farewell.

THE TRUTHS ARE REVEALED!

2009-07-12T22:58:00.000-07:00

I received a text message from our very monitor, Azizi yesterday evening. He asked all of us to be in ‘Surau’ the next day for Maghrib, Hajat and Isyak prayers. And also we were going to have apology session. Hm, being in Saturday was quite exaggerating when I had a lot of stuffs to be done. In surau, my classmates wanted any other person exclusive Hazim to be the Imam for Hajat as he recited fastly, Hahahaha… We had Hamzah as our imam. Hmm, never mind. The most important subject I want to impress here is that I was in a very deep sorrow that I heard my classmates’ apologies. Life is such a vale of tears! Yet, they were honest enough to tell me that they had ever misunderstood me as I used to be moody all the while. Well buddies, you have to walk a mile in my shoes so you’d know how my surroundings would be exactly like! Hahahaha… I could just say a few simple words towards them as I was much of speechless. What I wanted them to realize about is that uneasy always lays the head that wears the crown, and the ones are all of us. Being up a gum tree is at all not a walk in the park! It is rather difficult than how you could imagine it to be! It is indeclinable routine that we take up from the second we wake up till the second we close our eyes. Well, everything is now 0-0! Plus I am so intoxicated of splendid pleasure.

THE STUDYING WEEK GO BERSERK BUT NICE

2009-07-12T22:57:00.000-07:00

I was having one week for studying. But I did not take up the opportunity given to study and cover all the subjects I compulsorily am to take. Otherwise, I was snapping hundreds of pictures around here of every part of this college. Today was rainy like cats and dogs. None of drizzle nor windy it is. It was heavy rain. I recorded some videos that I know when I watch them later, I would be so sick of great missing towards my buddies. Life seems to take for me a puzzle that I can hardly solve. I can say that as studying atmosphere is getting bad, the photography session gets nicer! Every time I go out of my room, I would definitely bring my camera along for snapping. Technology does create effective whirlwind of profusion of memories. If I were to name those who I would be missing, these little fingers are extremely in inadequacy! Countless names I can say, but their faces have been adhered in this mind long time ago. I seem to have few ribs with some friends, but I don’t care. It impacts me nothing. Otherwise, I must pay attention on what I have been trusted to perform for. PSPM2, give me hint please!

THE EXAMS WENT OFF YOUR ROCKER

2009-07-12T22:56:00.001-07:00

PSPM2 of life had already passed with tons of unpredictable occurrence. They were all challenging, especially on Mathematics and Physics. As others knew, I did not use that study week properly as how it was supposed to be. Instead of flipping up many notes, I was just wandering around with pals in there. Well, you must exactly know what a bouncy teen like me would do when he is bored. Hm, referring back to exams, it extremely went off my rocker, or in any other exact word, berserk! But it was a piece of luck for me to manage to answer Chemistry questions quite well. This journal is written when I am home.

BOREDOM IS WHERE I AM TRAPPED IN

2009-07-12T22:54:00.000-07:00

The day I left college, I was hoping that there would be still any flare of happiness for me to. But it did not float up as I wanted it to be. What happened around my homecoming is my brother deceased on 28th April. It is very pathetic for me to know that my siblings are getting smaller in number. It is exigently petrifying. Before that, I could have still looked after him at home and hospital. I was not actually in a very deep sorrow. I remained to be strong after being pacified of my friends. Praise is to God that He made them understand how I really needed them the day I was very down. At least, the burden I had on my shoulders could be reduced a bit thus it would be an ease for me. Let’s talk about the topic I actually want to dispute in here. Boredom is a word of boredom and sickening! I am pretty hooked up to the word so much apart from having daily fight with my family due to a small matter- they could not just accept the way I am, I think. I tried and am still trying to investigate and study about my behaviors, but I found nothing absolutely wrong with it. And surely it goes on day by day by without any solution. God damn it! Be it being alone or amongst family, both are terribly dull!